Friday, December 31, 2010 | By: Reenie

An ounce of nothing

Maybe because I am in this weird mental state lately (don’t ask, long story), it is somewhat easier these days to blog about actions than thoughts

… I have been writing over here instead, once a week- but only if you call it writing- it is more ‘documenting’ than writing, I guess. But it helps me to focus on my life… to live intentionally and not by accident, to validate a few things…

… if you’re wondering where I am, feel free to read/ subscribe… there is some photography there too if you’re interested in that sort of thing.

... but otherwise- don’t bother…

just hang in here, if you please… :)

… because I know I will be back, but contrary to what I had thought initially- it may be a while till I do…

Till then.

[PS: Happy New Year!] 
Thursday, December 23, 2010 | By: Reenie

Whimsies and Walls

We sat for our caricature sketching yesterday at the Night Market (possibly a result of a 'lemonade'-induced euphoria), and this is what the talented street artist came up with:

Ladies and gentlemen, tadaaaa- presenting Crazy and I.

Yup- I like it; and now I need to get a big frame to showcase it on my walls :). If not anything else, it will act as a reminder of how life is more fun when it is sprinkled with some silly...

Long live whimsy! Yayie!
Sunday, December 19, 2010 | By: Reenie

A Game of Strategy

This blankness, sadly, is now very familiar to me… the way I open this page, look at the blankness, try to find the words to spill in here- unsuccessfully every time- and then close it- giving up.

I do have words floating in my brain, but what I don’t have is the will of making a coherent string of words…

… so I don’t; I am blogging without obligation after all- I don’t HAVE to make a blogpost, I don’t have to do anything here that I don’t want to… or, can't seem to be able to. I can take a break- from writing- can’t I?

I guess I can… hence I keep the words floating, perhaps all it needs is time- to mature, ripen and burst out. If it is a writer’s block, I will just let it be… words will come around; they always have.

… so meanwhile I am looking in at my life instead, embracing it, not willing to let it pass me by while I just sat here keeping on trying to make a blogpost :)
Thursday, December 9, 2010 | By: Reenie

Hula Hoop Hoop

December’s here... two more weeks till the break!

If life is getting a little too hectic for you- do remind yourself to hang in there for dear life...

... or sanity. Your pick :)

I pick sanity, because that’s what I am lacking these days... and while we’re at it- some energy too... also some back massage- my back HURTS... and oh, some masala-chai please!

... and oh, it may be a good time to tell you all that I am still alive. I am just not around much- because while all is well, December does make me feel like a spinning top- the kind which is enchanting to look at and watch it slow down bit-by-bit while at the same time wondering when it will finally settle...

Life is so so busy these days...

So while I have this moment- Happy Holidays in advance, everyone. The holidays, for me, are not coming soon enough- but I’m happy anyway that they are just around the corner :)

[Image Credit: Crazy- this man in the photograph was Hula Hooping at the Bourke Street roadside when the snap was taken]
Thursday, December 2, 2010 | By: Reenie

a string of Random thoughts

... it's my work Christmas Party tomorrow. I need to get myself together- clothes, nails, hair- oh, bother! I am tempted to show up in my PJ's, just for the heck of it; or not show up at all... but that would be BAD, though very typical of me... :P

... it's raining, too- cats and dogs and mice. The frontyard looks so green, it's a pleasure to the eyes! 

... Sher is sleeping on my lap and looking at him I am sometimes so full of love that it's overwhelming, tear-jerking and scary in a weird way... makes me think- maybe I judge myself too harshly after all... maybe, just maybe, if I ever decide to be one- I may not end up being a very bad mother after all... mind you, there is a big 'if', and hey... it's just a thought!

... what can I have for lunch? Instant noodles, maybe... can't be bothered with cooking and I ran out of breakfast cereals...

... it's December already... a few more weeks and there comes my Christmas break.

... I am having a rather enjoyable 'sick day', I must say. I am home... I love my home :)! I am such a homebug :)

[Image Credit: Crazy]
Sunday, November 28, 2010 | By: Reenie


I love December.

... even when I am anticipating a busy couple of weeks with Christmas parties, birthdays and life in general... I love it nonetheless because it brings me a 10-day-break... 10 days of freedom. Very few things can beat that- won’t you agree? :)

This weekend is a lazy one- it’s a cold and rainy Sunday- with Crazy and Sher sleeping in till late (it’s 11am) and I just curled up in the sofa watching the rain from the window and enjoying the sounds of my quiet house with a super-warm coffee mug...

Only that it’s not coffee, it’s masala chai- albeit the pre-packed, too-sweet ones... but today is the kind of a day when a masala chai feels the best... and I feel way too lazy to make one from the scratch.

... and you know what else feels right on a day like today?

Homemade spaghetti with buttered mushrooms, tomatoes and light cream...!

... and that is what’s cooking on my stove. Did I ever tell you that I find cooking therapeutic? Well, I do. I don’t feel like it always, but I enjoy it when I do.

... and I would not have known any better welcome to December on this last November weekend than chilling in with a warm mug of masala chai and a quiet house smelling of butter, cream, mushroom and spaghetti... :)

My life, at this moment, is good. Hope yours is too. 
Monday, November 22, 2010 | By: Reenie

Small Hours

The whole universe is engaged in a conspiracy against me these days... sleep eluded me last night and left me counting ‘minutes’. It wasn’t too bad though; I actually even chuckled aloud at one point around 4am when the cat was walking all over me while purring REALLY loud!

I mean- really- what can be more cute than a purring cat?

But of course- day has broken as it always does and I am at work now with a headache and dark circles around the eyes; and as soon as I stepped in- there was a mock fire drill; then a frantic emergency call by the boss that every Accountant dreads ON THE VERY DAY of the QBR Presentation:

‘They have done something again! Our numbers have changed!!!!!’

One deep breath; well... more than one maybe. Fix it; fix it quick- because time is running out, the big meeting is just a few hours away. We need the right numbers- because the first language that the corporate world speaks is ‘numbers’... and fix it I did- because that’s what I do- for a living. It’s not hard... numbers are easy, they follow rules... enough to let you ‘forecast’ somewhat accurately.

... unlike life, where the only rule that is consistently followed is that ‘rules change’... and more often than not- no matter whether we realize it enough or not- this unpredictability is precisely what makes it 'life'...

... and I am trying to fix it too. My life, that is :)
Sunday, November 21, 2010 | By: Reenie

Like slipping Sand

Where HAVE I been, you ask? I know. It has been a while that I have not been here, even when I have made an half-arsed effort to make a post.

You would agree that there is a difference between having a presence and being present, right? I have made a few blog-posts in the past weeks... but I have not been here really- work has been busy, lunch times have been lonely, the weather has been muggy and depressing and somewhere along the line- I have let part of myself slip away from my grip.

This morning, when the sun fell directly on my eyes and I could sleep no more- I suddenly remembered and I missed.

I missed blogging... real blogging, and all of a sudden I missed you all- your visits, your lives and your kind words.

I need to come back here; because blogging helps me to not slowly slip away- like those smooth sands do from your hand.

I can't let it happen, can I? :).

On a possibly unrelated note, check this out- if you like? I have been working on it a bit, because however 'regular' my life is- sometimes I need to look back and see where I was and how far I have come from there. What do you think? Does it happen to you too? 

[Image Credit: my friend, Simz]
Saturday, November 20, 2010 | By: Reenie

.. and tell me, did Venus blow your mind? Was it everything you wanted to find and then you missed me while you were looking for yourself out there

Today's guest post is from Crazy :). Yes, my Crazy- the very same one as the one in this post :). Without further ado, here goes:

When the rain walks to you and asks, 'Hey stranger, would you like to laugh with me?' what do you say in response? Do you ask her why she cries all the time? You might. What if she answers, 'Crying? What about my pitter patter laughter?' You would smile; at that point you are strangers no more.

When the sun takes a sip of wine, do you offer him a beer? What if the sun says, 'Beer will make me all dry'? Would you give him a look of disbelief? You might. He would withdraw and at that point you would become a stranger.

The wind will still tell you stories about her last dinner with rain, the exuberant party with the sun and all the fun of travelling. But she would shy away from telling you anything about her mysterious relationship with the cloud. You might ask her, 'isn't rain a cousin of the cloud?' just to bring up the topic. What if she says nothing but gives a mischievous smile. At that point you would become friends forever.

You would sit beside the window, looking at the crowd of roads, stars, the moon and the rainbow. You would say, 'I know you all'. They would reply, 'Of course my dear, aren't you just one of us?' At that point you would live forever...

Reenie's note:
Crazy writes (or does not write, he's an awful slack when it comes to blogging) here. Go say 'hi' if you like :). As it seems, I have nothing further to add. I have always struggled to speak of my emotions, I do not see it changing any time soon... 
With this, the guest posts series for me reaching the 100th post in this blog comes to an end. Thanks again, everyone! Cheers!
[Art Credit: Crazy's Photography]
Tuesday, November 16, 2010 | By: Reenie

Feet and Paws

Crazy is inches deep in his books and notes these days- physiology, statistics, projects, exams, reports... He is not as organized as I am... and my house looks... umm... interesting lately... with papers everywhere.

I was so tired last night, I just moved the papers a little bit, got into the quilt with Crazy- drawing the heat in from him, reading a book from my Kindle- ignoring the dirty sink, the cluttered living room and the dust on the floor...

A while after... a small meow and a fluffy cat... soft paws making room with us in that same sofa where Crazy is inches deep in the notes, me covered with a quilt and papers and engrossed in a book. It’s amazing how great cats are in squeezing in :).

And me? I closed the Kindle- ‘The Memory Keeper’s Daughter’ could wait, made a little room in the space that my body created on the sofa- between my chest, tummy and thighs- for the little cat... who settled in with happy meows- and as a token of appreciation showered me with nose kisses before settling into a belly-up nap.

... and for that one hour yesterday evening- with Crazy, me and Sher- in our little Ikea sofa with Sher sleeping on my tummy and Crazy’s hand resting casually on my feet while he studied the Gastrointestinal system chapter- there was a fleeting visit by ‘Perfection’ in our lives.

... and I realized once again that it hardly matters what state your life is in- cluttered, dusty or with a dirty sink- it can still get close-to-perfect every once in a while :).
Sunday, November 14, 2010 | By: Reenie

Moments of Peace

Sometimes there is nothing better than an empty brain and it is surprisingly easy to have one when you have people around you...

... and contrary to the popular belief- ‘dealing with stuff’ is not an ‘all-purpose-solution’, sometimes ‘not thinking’ is blissful, sometimes an empty brain is all that you need... sometimes that is THE solution.

I am purposely ignoring my brain these days ...

And in my quest to find some kind of peace- looking neither for answers nor questions, things may not have been not exceedingly exciting, but they have been ‘fun’ in their own ways and 'good' too... just as 'life' is I suppose.

Yup, I have been well. You?
Saturday, November 13, 2010 | By: Reenie

Be That Change

Today's guest post is from my sweet friend Jacqueline from Jacqueline's Cat House. Jacqueline has shared a few valuable life lessons, I hope you like them as much as I did. Without further ado, here goes:

A Few Life Lessons That Might Change Your Day...or Might Not...

1. Acceptance and Forgiveness are two of the most important concepts we will ever truly need to master; through these two things, which must be applied to ourselves before we can truly relate it to others, we open our hearts to happiness and love.

Beautiful Jacqueline (right-most) with Parents and Friend, Harry
2. Treat people the way we want to be treated, especially when it means we are the "bigger" person...Of course, there is a certain point no one should be allowed to cross, but in general, if we approach others with kindness, even when they are not using kindness with us, we walk away with dignity and more respect for ourselves for being true to ourselves and not the whims of others.

3. Smile as much as we can, even if it is sometimes forced; it will bring smiles back to us from others and possibly make someone else feel better as well.

4. We have to FEEL our feelings, the good and the bad, and work through them, face them and release them = there is no other way to be free from their silent or not so silent "hold" over our lives...If it hurts (a thought, a memory, a relationship), find a way to let it go and embrace the relief it brings your soul.

5. Life is what we make it and most of our life is determined by our perspective on any given day; that's why it is important to train ourselves to look for the good in every issue we face=the glass should always be viewed as "half full" because being grateful, especially for the little things, allows us to feel joy in the moment...There is a positive in every negative or difficult situation, just waiting to be discovered; if we look long and hard at the painful issues in our lives, we can always find one positive thing that was covered from view by the sorrow of the situation...This can shift our perception, allowing us to realize and embrace the simple truth that the only thing we really have control over in life is our reaction to it.

Life is not easy for the most lucky of us; every one has a cross to bear, a sorrow that runs deep and heavy on their soul, a grief that will never truly heal...Time is a great source of comfort for what ails us, physically and emotionally, but we have to have open hearts and minds to allow love and happiness to enter our lives...So often, pain and suffering in one part of our lives can make us "shut down" in other areas because pain IS anger/anger IS pain and we would rather not feel that way, so we shut down and try to protect ourselves, which in reality, only hurts us more...So let's try to be brave and face our fears in order to let them go since life is too short to hold on to the bad stuff=Love is ALWAYS the answer...I hope we will all be able to find even the smallest joy in what our days bring us.

Reenie's Note: 
If you would like to say 'hi', Jacqueline writes here; and I recommend you check out this, this and this post- there is a guaranteed overload of cute and furry! Don't tell me later that I did not warn you :D! 

We are almost coming to an end with the Guest Post Series for reaching my 100th post. Thank you everyone for being a part of it. There is however just one more and I urge you to stay tuned for the next weekend, because it will be from someone very very special to me. You have been granted exactly ONE guess, now have a guess- READY STEADY SHOOT! Meanwhile- have a great weekend, my lovelies :)
Thursday, November 11, 2010 | By: Reenie

In My Element

Split ends, ungroomed eyebrows, dark circles, tired eyes... but a happy heart despite...

... because while the nail polish of my fingers and toes are chipped off- they were well-soaked in salt water for long enough to make it all okay.

I am of the opinion that saltwater is amazing- be it in form of ocean water, tears or sweat. I think there are a very few real problems on this earth than at least one form of saltwater cannot solve; don’t you?

Water is my true element; it is like an ointment to my brain. Yup, it is! What do you feel is YOUR element?

On a semi random note, I plan to catch-up with your lives tonight {by which I mean I plan to open the G’Reader after DAYS and face those scary unread items are ready to stare right back at me! }... G-r-e-a-t!

[Image credit: Vegetable Assassin]
Sunday, November 7, 2010 | By: Reenie

Would We Be Wonderful If It Wasn’t For The Weather?

Have you noticed how easy it is to ‘look’- than it is to ‘see’...

... or how unthreatening 'a crush’ sounds next to ‘the one’, or ‘lust’ next to ‘love’, or ‘acquaintance’ next to ‘friend’?

... or how easy it is to be a tourist than a traveller, to leave than be left, to be ‘the popular one’ than ‘the cherished’, to give a ‘second chance’ than a third, to 'give' an opinion than 'take' one?

... or how- depending on how much you care- it alternates sometimes... and what was so easy to hold on to becomes the most difficult and what was so easy to let go- is not anymore?

I realize that in my life so far- I have a soul mate, been loved to bits, have a few cherished friends, am a traveller, been cherished silly- there has actually been some who cared enough for me to choose what is more difficult, there has been some to whom I mattered...

... now can you do me a favour? Because every once in a while, I forget... the next time I'm being bull-headily hard on myself- can you please remind me to come read this post? :)

[Title credit: Would We Be Happier by The Corrs]
Saturday, November 6, 2010 | By: Reenie

Forever in the Wires

Today's Guest Post is from my friend, Elle- who is one of my earliest blogland buddies; from the time when I used to blog at LiveJournal. I will now let her do the talking: 

At the end of the day, what is there that gives you peace? What thing helps you slough off the work and cares of the day and get back to yourself?

For me it is communing with my cats and parrots, tending to my plants, especially my orchids, and doing bead and wirework.

It is the last thing that feeds my creative side and allows me to express myself in a way that does not involve words. It’s a hobby that brings me great joy, restores the balance in my mind, allows me to release stress and ultimately ends with me creating something of beauty.

Elle's beadwork

I prefer to do wirework because I like the organic nature of taking a pair of pliers and a spool of wire and making something from them. A few loops here, a few bends there and I have a reflection of myself, forever crafted in wire, ready to be worn or displayed. Quite often I add beads or stones to my creations enabling me to express myself and my moods in even more depth. Sharp, angular pieces paired with dark or red beads allow me to vent my anger. Delicate swirls and spirals decorated with pale blues and greens reflect the peace within my heart. Stones of amber, orange and brown blended together with the wire to create everlasting leaves to be hung in my home to welcome my favorite season of autumn.

One of the wonderful things about this hobby of mine is the joy I can bring to others by giving my creations away. I love the expressions of shock and delight when I make things for people. It’s always nice to see someone wearing something I made and think “I did that!”

In my world, there’s an awful lot of stress. How nice that I can wind and bend and swirl it all away with a pair of pliers and a little bit of metal and end up with something pretty that brings me and others joy as a result.

Reenie's Note:
Elle is a very talented beader, I can certify that! The earrings that you see in the photograph, those were gifts to me by Ellie some years back (I have a thing for hoop earrings, maybe you can tell...!)- I wear them a lot till today. Now, who wouldn't? Now, if you would like to say 'hi'- Elle writes here- and my recommendation is this, this and this- my favourite posts by her in the recent times.

I can totally understand the stress-release factor- I know that for me it varies- from writing, sketching, reading, walking by the beach and snuggling with Sher and Crazy with no agenda for the day- different time different measure. What is it for you? 
Wednesday, November 3, 2010 | By: Reenie

Cracks in the Crystal Ball

It seems like I have lost my motivation to carry on... umm... with.... work...  but then, it is not a REAL option- I know that too. Hence I’m hoping that the motivation to being a fully-functional individual will somehow magically reappear. Hey, I can hope!

I’ve been dreaming of beaches, shores and beach houses... it probably means that I... sort of... need a break... but I am not ready to leave Sher behind in the hands of a stranger now that he is a little better... not yet... so that is not an option either... well, not right now anyway.

Oh, how I wish there was an ‘off’ button in my brain... to tune the voices out- for it to be deaf than comatosed... but do I really? I think I do; there are days I am simply tired of its overactiveness. There are high chances of today being THAT day.

This week is a short one for us over here in Australia... why then is it dragging so much? Or, maybe the week isn’t- rather I am. I know- it all boils down to that: me... it is me who needs a fix *Sigh*. Oh well.

What an infinite loop; bleh- and what a stupid post. Umm... so... how are you feeling lately?

[Title Credit: Crystal Ball by Pink]
Monday, November 1, 2010 | By: Reenie

A moment in time (inside my head)

I wrote this using 'Notes' in the iPad. I was about to copy-paste the text in this 'Compose' window, but then decided against it. So it stays like this- a snapshot of the screen- a moment in time, captured.

Have a great Monday, everyone :)
Sunday, October 31, 2010 | By: Reenie

Through rain, wind and sun

Yup, that’s us- on a day-out to the Brighton Beach- with the wind chilly and the sky sunny.

... but who bothers about the chill when there’s sunlight this pretty... and when there is this boy by my side- through rain, wind and sun? 

Sometimes talking about the not-so-good is much easier; and to an untrained eye- I may not seem appreciative of what is consistently good in my life...

... but I do appreciate.

I just do not have the words to express it most of the times and even when I do- that four-lettered-word is something I have struggled to speak of all my life anyway... but regardless of it all, I am at times amazed and always happy to find Crazy by my side...

... and in my life, THAT is one 'consistent good'...

... what is it in yours? :)

Saturday, October 30, 2010 | By: Reenie

Bloom where you are planted

Today's Guest Post is from my friend Kea from Musings on a Small Life. Without further ado, here goes: 

Congratulations to Reenie on her achievement of 100 posts! This is a milestone worthy of celebration throughout Blog-Land.

I admit I was taken aback when she asked if I’d be willing to write something to mark the occasion. I’m not a writer, nor do I aspire to be one, and I live a very small and now solitary life—no grand travels, no exciting job, nothing, on the surface, to blog about.

And after I took leave of my senses and agreed, I was faced with the dilemma of what to write.

I’m not 20-something or 30-something anymore. 50 is looming closer than I care to admit and I haven’t many illusions left; perhaps none. I knew that whatever I wrote wouldn’t be filled with innocence and hope, wouldn’t be “happy happy joy joy.” That’s not reality, unless one is very young and innocent indeed, or particularly selfish and self-centered.

However, a quote I read a couple of months ago on one of those many blogs I follow (The Cat’s Meow!) struck a deep chord and stayed with me.

"It's life, that's all. There are no happy endings, just happy days, happy moments.” Jonathan Tropper, How to Talk to a Widower

This is something I have struggled with for a long time now: the understanding and acceptance that life doesn’t end happily, that illness, suffering and death come to us all, and that all we have is the Present Moment.

My childhood wasn’t particularly happy for a variety of reasons that no one need read; suffice to say I spent most of it, including my teen years and early twenties, either alone or keeping company with four-legged companions and Elder Trees. In retrospect, I see that I struggled, undiagnosed, with chronic moderate depression from an early age, perhaps as young as 7 or 8. Yet I don’t think I truly grasped that there are no happy endings, didn’t fully understand soul-deep suffering, until my own divorce after 11 years, followed by a failed rebound relationship and subsequent descent into the blackness of full-blown clinical depression.

In the 9+ years since, during which time I’ve again taken solace in Nature and with my fur family, I have come to feel that there is little in life but suffering for those who feel deeply.

I have come to realize that there are very few happy spousal relationships on this planet, very few lasting love bonds. I have come to understand that people partner for convenience, for finances, for companionship, for lust of course—but that none of these leads to that happy-ever-after we are conditioned to expect.

I have come to understand that even enduring marriages can be miserable, filled with little but suffering. What do you do, for instance, when your spouse has become physically frail and is slipping into dementia, as is the case with my mom and her older husband? Where is the happy ending in that? There is none.

Still, we continue to tell ourselves we will be happy when we grow up, when we have a job, when we buy a house, when we pay off our debts, when we have the latest and greatest gadgets, when we marry, when we have children, when we’re rid of our now-despised spouse, when we remarry, when we find a better job, when we retire.

But the reality is that “when” often never comes. We can be struck down by illness or accident at any moment of any day. Life can turn in a split second. The issue then becomes one of balancing on that razor’s edge – how to fully live each day, while understanding the impermanence of all things, including our own lives.

I think there are two factors in striving for this: One is to practice gratitude, no matter what your beliefs are (or aren’t), to start the day by being grateful for the breath of life moving through your body, for the morning, for the gift of another day. The other is to appreciate the small things that too many of us overlook – a good cup of coffee or tea, a scrumptious meal, the bark or meow of beloved fur family members, a sunrise or sunset, flowers, trees, the chirping of birds. Things too many humans don’t notice, caught up as they are on the roller coaster of acquiring or doing more, more, more.

But life is these small moments, broken only by a few euphoric highs and terrible lows. Most of our lives are spent in the day-to-day drudgery and triviality of our routines. If we don’t find happiness there, we will not find it anywhere.

There is another quote I read some years ago, by author Annie Dillard:

“How we spend our days is, of course, how we spend our lives.”

Think about that. Really think about it. Because in a blink you’ll be 50 years old, 75, or 83 and will be wondering where the decades went and why you haven’t really lived.

Regardless of whether or not there is any sort of life beyond this physical plane, we pass through only once in these bodies, with these identities. Make the most of your time here. Don’t settle for second best, for less than your heart’s desire, if you have the option. And if you don’t have the option, try to find some good, some Joy and happiness, along your Path.

Bloom where you are planted.

Reenie's Note: 
If you enjoyed this little piece of wisdom like I did and would like to say 'hi', Kea writes here. I specially recommend that you read this, this and this- my favourite posts from her in the recent times :). Thank you, Kea. 
Thursday, October 28, 2010 | By: Reenie

Dirt and Daisies hit the pave

This week has been busy... long hours at work, skipped lunches, a million emails, a gazillion spreadsheets, a head full of swimming thoughts...

... but even then- I did come back to this page to ‘compose’ something... a few times; only that I did not quite manage it... looks like exhaustion, long hours and skipped lunches have taken their tolls on my brain... and these days words just float and wiggle away, and spilling them over here is just as difficult as it is to keep them within.

... and in an effort to ‘un-clutter’ my brain, here I am again- with not much to say, but saying it anyway- at least trying to... unfortunately though my brain presently much represents the state at which my fridge is in- not quite empty, but nothing there that can create a decent meal.

Well, at least I tried...

This finally is my 100th post. Could be better- but hey, no worries :)

[Image Credit: My Dear Friend, M-Mono; Title Credit: Oh Hark! by Lisa Mitchell]
Monday, October 25, 2010 | By: Reenie

Back in the Silver light

One of the things that make it up for waking up at the wee hours for work is this...

... the beautiful Yarra River- that flows through the heart of Melbourne.

Yarra is breathtaking and this photo does not do her justice; but trust me she is very pretty, specially in Summer... coming to work is ‘almost nice’ when there is Silver sunlight, won’t you agree?

This is also the very sight that I took one look at, many years back, and felt like I was home... I had never in my life felt like this for any place before- that sense of belonging, that feeling of ‘home’... and this silver sunlight is the very reason I love the Melbourne’s Summers so much.

There it is, my friends... time for me to enjoy my Yarra, this Silver Summer light, my City.... and look at my life with my Crazy and my very own little ‘Sher’ (my cat’s name, which in Persian- means a ‘Lion’) in this new light...

... after all, life is short and there are only so many Summers to enjoy... and I want to enjoy it the fullest while I can.

What is it about ‘your’ City that you love the most?
Sunday, October 24, 2010 | By: Reenie

Three seasons, One week...

Melbourne is recently going through a phase of season-indecision... one day it is Spring, the next- Winter and right on the next it is Summer...

On the days of Spring- I put on a light jacket and enjoy the life in nature, on the days of Summer- I would feel the sun on my face, walk by the beach and feel happy; on the days of Winter- I would brood and in an effort to feel better- perhaps get a pedicure ... :)

... and while the seasons were changing, deciding, fighting amongst themselves- with Winter winning the most of the battles- life, of course, went on and with each day we forgot a little bit more how Summer felt...  and how it feels to have a scorching sun biting on your skin...

Yesterday Summer finally decided to show up at our doorstep along with the discovery that the air conditioner in the car is broken; it was so cold for MONTHS that we did not get to realize that what we did not need for many months was actually broken all this time...

Well... I am a Summer girl and the drive home put a smile on my face; and even while making that phone call to the car mechanic- I knew what 'Priceless' meant... and the sun burning on my skin can be one perfect example of just that :)
Saturday, October 23, 2010 | By: Reenie

My Love, she throws me like a Rubber Ball...

Today's Guest Post is from my friend Old Kitty. I will let her do (most of) the talking:

I wrote this poem last year during my writing course. Actually the original was longer, more awkward, technically challenged and downright pants.

As I am currently in an editing type of mood with my monstrous novel, I thought I’d air this poem in its edited glory just one more time.

No need to tell me not to give up my day job. Trust me this does not reek as the original did. It just sort of pongs a little. And that for me is progress.


The Hot Water Bottle

You keep me warm, cosy, comforted
You are covered in soft red fleece
I hug you in fear of the cold

Sometimes I wonder if you will explode.

I can move you around my body.
My toes wiggle under your warmth
You keep the brutal chill at bay
You chase the icicles away.

You stay with me as I drool and snore
You keep with me until the morn
You always start heat-hot and grow lukewarm
But you never ever blow cold.

Reenie's note:

It is now getting pleasantly warm over here in Australia: late-Spring is leading way to Summer; but of course- Old Kitty lives in the UK where the love for the 'Hot Water Bottle' is in the season, I'm sure. Hehe...

I enjoyed this silly poem, hope you did too... (and LOL at the 'pongs a little'!). Those of you who'd like to say 'hi'- she writes here and I recommend you especially read this, this and this- my favourite blog-posts in recent times.

Have a great weekend, everyone!

[Image Credit: Internet; Title Credit: The Sweetest Thing- U2]
Tuesday, October 19, 2010 | By: Reenie

I run off where the drifts get deeper; Sleeping Beauty trips me with a frown...

I decided a manicure-pedicure will be a good idea for today... so I did a ‘walk-in’ to the nearest ‘nails parlour’ right after work. I was right, it was a good idea indeed. It was 1.5 hours of pure indulgence and I came out feeling very pleased with myself... getting my nails done ‘lifts me up’ somehow.

The only thing I want to complain about are those pedicure slippers. Have you noticed how ugly fashion-challenged they are?! I was given two choices- hot pink or fluorescent green. I don’t like pink, but I like fluorescent green (or anything fluorescent) even less... besides, as if a sensible colour will make these ‘slop-flops’ any less silly...! Ha!

I chose pink... there wasn’t much choice there anyway. I just put them on and waited in the open lobby for Crazy to come pick me up- reading from my Kindle and sporting the silly pink slipper (eeek!)... once I looked up and saw a guy wink at me. I could only manage a very sheepish smile back...

Oh well, must be the charm of my newly-done nails ;). Yup, I will keep telling myself that- thankyouverymuch!

On a semi-random note, a question- How about you? Is there any colour that you feel 'not you'?

[Title Credit: Winter by Tori Amos]
Sunday, October 17, 2010 | By: Reenie

The Opposite of ‘Awake’ and ‘Alert’

If- in the last week- it took me a minute too long to come up with an equation; or to remember if I had dinner, your name, my home phone number; or to take my credit card back after paying for something (seafood dinner from Red Rooster, yup!); or to generally ‘concentrate’ on anything at all...

... I pledge ‘not guilty’ and condemn the hayfever for it ALL. You have to agree that allergies can impair your brain that way, right? I can blame the medicine (I took Zyrtec) too, if you like... I mean, have a look at what the website says:

Zyrtec can cause side effects that may impair your thinking or reactions. Be careful if you drive or do anything that requires you to be awake and alert.

Hmm. I know of something that does not require me to be awake- SLEEP! Heh! And ‘alert’? Ha! I don’t really have a choice here, do I? Have you ever heard of an ‘alert’ hayfever-er? No, right? Me neither.

Anyway- before I forget what I was saying and start talking about... umm... shoes- ‘not guilty; and I now rest my case'.

Important Notice: If you live in Melbourne and thinking about adopting a cat, please consider adopting from here. This cat shelter needs to relocate and the cats need new forever homes... like... right now.

[Art Credit: My dear friend, M-Mono]
Saturday, October 16, 2010 | By: Reenie

A Postcard from Tampa

Happy 100th Reenie!!!

Reenie's note:

The postcard (go on, click on it to biggify!) is from my fellow blogger and friend- Agnes; as she graciously agreed to guest post for my approaching the 100th post in this blog- she did it by creating this unique postcard. The more I look at it, the more I love- especially appreciating the thoughts put in each little thing in the card... Rest assured, the postcard has found the 'correct Reenie'- and with such precise instructions- it could never not!

I bet no one here is surprised that I absolutely want those stilettos RIGHT NOW :)! Hehe.

For those who would like to know, Agnes writes here- and I highly recommend you read this, this and this post by her in the recent times. I specially like them; I think you may too.

So... what do you think? ;)
Thursday, October 14, 2010 | By: Reenie

My Ailing Brain...

If you are ever running on ‘limited mental capacity’ like I am at the moment (Hayfever, Dang!!), I recommend you read/ re-read the ‘Winnie the Pooh’. Trust me, it does have some therapeutic ingredients to cater an ailing brain :)

That is what I did through the evening yesterday- enjoying thoroughly and reading parts out to Crazy sometimes and literally laughing out loud from time to time. Well, in my defense- Crazy laughed too, so I am not the only one who's retarded!!

Here’s one of the parts that made us laugh loud enough to wake the kitten up from one of his catnaps:

Christopher Robin said you couldn't be called Tresspassers W, and the Piglet said yes, you could, because his grandfather was, and it was short for Tresspassers Will, which was a short for Tresspassers William. And his grandfather had two names in case he lost one- Tresspassers after an uncle, and William after a Tresspasser.

Hehe. Leads me to a series of questions though: Do you also like children’s books? Did you like children’s book when you were a child... or did you, like me, started to truly appreciate them after childhood was long-past... and finally- perhaps the silliest one of them all- do they ever make you wish that you lived inside a story? :)

[Image Credit: Internet]
Wednesday, October 13, 2010 | By: Reenie

The best you can do- is to fake it...

I want to be here, but I am really not... or is it the other way round- that I am here even though I’d rather not? Oh well, who knows. All I know is that Hayfever has claimed me and I’m trying to find my way back to recovery...

As it stands right now, I can’t decide what is worse- the itchy swollen eyes, the fatigue, or the fact that I am working at a much reduced mental capacity; the world around me is at the risk of me suddenly forgetting the time and place and instinctively sticking the tongue out to answer at least some from the incessant flow of stupid questions by this annoying and usually-very-rude colleague of mine.

I don’t mean to be vindictive- but can I be that kind of ‘insane’ for once and later claim my reputation back from my Hay Fever insurance? I can’t? Yea, thought so. Shucks.

[Title Credit: Sometimes you can’t make it- U2; Art Credit: Veggie]
Sunday, October 10, 2010 | By: Reenie

The more things change, the more they remain the same...

I am missing that lake today... the one inside my university campus- where I’d lay on my tummy and spend the class breaks studying, doodling, sketching or watching white ducks swimming on the blue water...

Now that I think of it- that was when I found a part of myself- until that time, I had never truly known the comforts of my own company, or the beauty 'silence' held... that lake taught me those things...

... or maybe it was I who did- with some help from the lake... explains why I did not want anyone else to find me there, because there just wasn’t a polite way of saying, ‘shut up’. There still isn’t but I’m giving it a try.

I am missing that lake today... to sit at that same spot and watch the waves and the ducks... and if anyone would like to join in- I am not bothered as long as they would not want to share me with me... I want all of myself with the lake in that serenity. That's all.

On a related note, thanks to Meera for getting me all tangled up in nostalgia. Well done, you! LOL!

[Image source: Internet]
Saturday, October 9, 2010 | By: Reenie

Perhaps I need some Red Bull...

I am so fatigued since the last few days that it is not funny... or cute.

... so fatigued you may think that I’m turning into a cat- catnapping the weekend away... only much much less floofy and much less adorable- actually far from it.

I plan to waste away this weekend to top up the energy level once again... perhaps some beach time and some wicked steak from the local steak house (with loads of mushroom sauce on top!) will help me do just that.

... but before I do any of those, a hot bubble bath (with plenty of bath salt) is in order... only if I can find the energy to turn the water on...

Oh well... have a great weekend, everyone!

On a semi-random note, I think a mushroom sauce is the BEST thing about a Porterhouse... it can be very pleasantly addictive. Yum! And, yup, that's MY baby in the photograph!! Cuteness, yes?!
Wednesday, October 6, 2010 | By: Reenie

Cappuccino please, extra strong, no sugar. Thank you.

With the new daylight savings timing here- what was 5am last week is 6am in this one and (unsurprisingly) my brain these days is still sleeping when the alarm goes off at 5am 6am.

My usual-favourite ‘masala chai’ from the downstairs coffee shop is not quite ‘cutting it’ these days – I am now going for extra strong cappuccino instead. That should tell you 'something', right?

Well... take this morning for example- when I saw my colleague Adrian running to catch up with my steps- instead of saying ‘Hey Adrian’, I said ‘Hey Joe’... and then spent the rest of the 2-minute walk to our desks absolutely shame-faced and muttering under my breath... Shall I add that 'Adrian' was rather amused?

... but please tell me now- who the hell is Joe?! Even now after so many hours, for the life of me, I cannot remember a single 'Joe' that I know personally (surely that cannot be the case?!) and it's not even 'morning' anymore!

Tuesday, October 5, 2010 | By: Reenie

That Silver Thing

My closest friend at work is going away next month- maternity leave- for six months... and the second closest- off he is to the USA for the Summer vacation (our Summer, I mean). Me, however? I have overdrawn on my Annual Leave back in July and staying right here in Melbourne...Yup, ALL THIS TIME. Not the most exciting of plans, you say?

True that in four weeks or so- my lunch times at work will get a little lonely, but at least the weather will be good and the beach near my work is not going anywhere!

Strange as it may sound, I am actually looking forward to those walks and the breaks. I have always liked some 'alone time' and besides, this weather makes me feel so contented that it almost seems exaggerated!

I am looking forward to the 4 days in November (Melbourne Cup), the 11 days in December (Christmas closure), Spring followed by Summer and plenty of beach time! And on top of that, I will get to spend a lot of time with my adorable four-legged furbaby...!

Silver lining, guys... sometimes (though not always) that lining does not seem ever-so-mythical... sometimes 'that silver thing' is a nice treat served on a tray with cherry on top... just for you :)

[Image credit: My lovely buddy, Simz]
Friday, October 1, 2010 | By: Reenie

As the music played I saw my life turn around, that was the day before love came to town

Oh, how I love Spring...

I love the long days. I love getting back home with the sunlight on my face. I love those trendy sunglasses. I love good hair days. I love the colours. I love the beach, the beach smell, the sands and the seagulls. I love the cherry blossoms. I love the life in the air. I love the painted toenails. I love the warmth. I love the perky playlists. I love that little summer dress.

I love the way Spring lifts me up and I love it all all all... Now I only wish the ankle heals soon enough so that I can make a sprint towards the springing Spring :)

[Title credit: When love comes to town- U2]
Thursday, September 30, 2010 | By: Reenie


My ankle is still ‘healing’...

... and I have opted to wear those flat ballet style shoes meanwhile.

Trust me, I am not exaggerating when I say that those shoes are so flat that you can actually feel the texture of the floor underneath. There is a reason that I had absolutely forgotten that I had a pair of those after I bought them some time last year. They feel so weird!

To be fair- they are not all that bad... but they not only bring out my ‘petite-ness’, they even highlight on it. Why... yesterday at the work lunch room, my buddy Stevie actually shouted out loud enough for EVERYONE to hear:

‘Hey Reenzie, I never realized that you were so small! How cute!’

Well, I know- that IDIOT (though adorable) friend of mine!

But then, it is true, after all. I am 5 feet and 2 inches tall and weigh 51 kilos- I guess I am ‘small’... but at least he said ‘cute', if only to make me feel 'less' small!

Stupid ankle.

[Image source: Internet]
Wednesday, September 29, 2010 | By: Reenie

The colours of my wings

A little more than two year ago- when I finished my Masters from La Trobe, I swore I will NEVER put myself through it EVER again. Why? Well... it wasn’t the easiest university, not the easiest course and we were working very very hard to support ourselves and to pay for the sky-high tuition.

A few years down the line- I am on the eve of joining for my CPA courses. I made peace with going back on that promise of ‘no studies EVER again’. True that my hard-earned degree from LTU is now allowing me to join in the program on a ‘Professional’ level instead of the ‘Foundation’ level- and unlike many others I need to complete 6 segments and not 14... I know it is a chance worth taking and I am taking it.

Life, I expect, will not be easy for the next 2 years- like it wasn’t during my LTU years; but I have seen that my insane efforts during those years have paid off, maybe this time it will too. I needed to give it a try... because it is a part of my nature to make myself a cocoon every once in a while, just to harvest my butterflies. After all, there never was a reward if you never worked for it. Let no one tell you otherwise. Trust me there WAS effort, even when they have made it look effortless.

So there I go... doing exactly that- trying to find the colours of my wings. Won’t you wish me luck?
Monday, September 27, 2010 | By: Reenie

Take these shoes and make them fit

Oh well... I twisted my ankle this morning while coming to work. I know. Ouch.

Granted that today was a rather chaotic public transport day, that I had high heels on, that I might have had some U2 rhythm passing through me from my ears to my feet, that it was before the time of the morning when ‘cognition’ finally kicks in, or that it was not really my fault that the escalator had stopped suddenly with a jolt...

... the fact remains- my poor hurty feet cannot serve me today and neither can those lovely impractical shoes that I had on; and not to mention, every time I try to move my foot? There I go again: Ouch!

I guess it calls for a day easy on my feet (which is mostly fine), a mellower playlist (or not... I love U2 way too much!), a designated driver, and less number tours to the downstairs coffee shop (this- of all things- HURTS, mate... this hurts BAD!)... What? I have ALL my priorities figured out and in place, don’t I? Hehe.

In other news, I am having a limpy LOVELY day, LOL! How about you?

[Title Credit: Yahweh by U2]
Saturday, September 25, 2010 | By: Reenie

A Long Walk

I remember we had taken a long walk that October day.

It was a little girl’s 3rd birthday and we walked till we found a perfect outdoor barbeque spot to celebrate. The house that we lived in then was too small to have a birthday party with 7 guests, you see?

That day turned out to be a lot of fun- the little girl was excited to have turned three and in her fluffy little world with red, blue and yellow Teletubbies and a doll named Nile Baby dressed in blue (or was it some other colour? Memory fails me now), she was the ‘princess’- and the rest of us, we were important parts of it too.

That little girl now lives oceans away. She still is a princess in her world- but we do not play a major role in it anymore; life has changed for us too. For one- we now live in bigger houses; we can now host birthday parties with 20 guests...

We do not walk all that much either, we drive... and it is only when I come across some photographs of those ‘hard’ days and I find myself 'missing' those days, that little girl and a handful of friends.

What can I say? I guess I am just weird like that.

[PS: I realize in this photo all of us grown-ups are wearing black jackets and blue jeans; and I happen to be the only one wearing sunnies! There you go Agnes, now you know how I look!]
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