Monday, August 30, 2010 | By: Reenie

The Promise...

Cherry blossoms are everywhere these days. Did you hear what I just said?!? EVERYWHERE!

Oh... they make me so happy! I think they are the prettiest flowers anyone EVER saw... soft, pretty, pure and enchanting.... absolutely beautiful! They are my favourite flowers (as if THAT wasn’t obvious enough, ha!), too!

You see- every year around this time when this city is covered in cherry blossoms, I know Spring is sending us news- that it is somewhere near, that now it will not be long now before she ‘springs’ with all her colours... with a wildflower here, a butterfly there and cherry blossoms EVERYWHERE!

Yippiedoo!!!!!

It has some side effects though- but none entirely unpleasant. Like- the outbreak of hayfevers and ‘Spring grins’... hehe... I came to work this morning with a stupid grin pasted across my face; and you are lucky if I did not jump on you saying, ‘LOOK OUTSIDE, YOU CHEEKY MONKEY!

And no, I’m not kidding; okay, only a little bit kidding :D

On a serious note however- SPRING IS ALMOST HERE IN AUSTRALIA, MY FRIENDS...! Now, isn’t that a very good news?!
Sunday, August 29, 2010 | By: Reenie

In My Bright Red Dorothy Shoes :)

As it seems now, life is going back to ‘normal’... with the kitten back home from the clinic, a Sunday night in dreaded anticipation of a Monday morning, cooking something out of a sudden whim (I do that often- today it was mushroom sauce, paired with some smoked chicken and boiled pasta with LOTS of pepper!), a glass of cold milk and many cups of tea...

Did I hear you say ‘boring’? Perhaps ‘normal’ is boring for most people. Not for me though, not usually and definitely not this week. This week specially, I welcome ‘normal’ with open arms- with a red carpet too- if that is what it takes. In my crappy last week, I have craved for any sort of ‘normalcy’ so much that I’m almost ‘giddy’ today in anticipation for ‘getting my way’.

Yes- life is perhaps slowly coming back to ‘normal’... slowly; and meanwhile- amidst many episodes of learning and unlearning, pluses and minuses, debits and credits- I am readying myself for the journey that lies ahead- armed with the red carpet... to lure ‘Normal’ my way and to ‘find my way home’...

... I now know that it takes more than just three taps of those Dorothy shoes and a magic spell of ‘thereisnoplacelikehome’... to actually find one’s way home...
Saturday, August 28, 2010 | By: Reenie

The Series of Saturday Spoonfuls: FedEx Logo

I am quite possibly the only person who had never before noticed the arrow in the FedEx logo?



See it? The arrow tucked in neatly right between the E and the X?

... and now that I HAVE seen it, I cannot seem to ‘not keep noticing it’...

Are you saying that you had ALWAYS known that it was there? Wow... really?

PS: Can you tell that my kitten is now back home from the clinic? :)
Thursday, August 26, 2010 | By: Reenie

Have you ever been loved by a cat?

I have turned into one of those women... those annoying ones who brag about their babies and goes declaring that their baby is the most beautiful one in the whole universe. I understand that this is a rather odd admission, because it is not at all flattering- but do hear me out and look at this face- will you?

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This is my kitten, my baby, my pride and joy - this is my Sherkhan. I love him to bits and I think there is no other cat in this universe who is as beautiful as my baby... it is a biased opinion, I am fully aware of that too... but it is my prerogative... just like it is for any other cat mommies (or daddies) here who read my blog to think their babies are the cutest.

You need to be/ have been loved by a cat to fully understand where I am coming from.

I hope in my heart that tomorrow by this time, I will have him back from the hospital- meowing, purring, and being his usual adorable self... that he is not in any major danger... that Pancreatitis may be painful, but fixable...

I hope, I hope, I hope... after all, what do we have- if we do not have hope?
Wednesday, August 25, 2010 | By: Reenie

Free Falling

The verdict is out- the kitten has pancreatitis; this is a repeat, he had it another time around this time last year- that is when he was put on a prescription diet for life... he still is on that prescription diet.

They do say this is a tricky enough disease that keeps coming back... Yes, THEY did say; it is ME who kept thinking that he will be spared; because I have had enough struggles in life already- and that now it was time for my rewards. Right? Wrong.

Life never really lets you relax, does it?

It was a bad enough day at work even without it. This is QBR time and I have been swimming, drowning and floating in numbers..... budgets, expenses and cashflows... costs to reallocate, projects to close- check-recheck-frustrate- follow up- deep breaths- maintaining this steady voice with much effort, nerves... a constant trial on patience.... surely, a migraine-worthy day in every way...

... and then... this... and I felt myself losing it- falling... again...

It’s been a while that my life is in a steady fall... every time I open my eyes, I am a little further down... it’s been so long that I do not even remember the feel of that steady ground that I may have once stood on...

... I think I’d like to have that ground under my feet. I’d like that very much.
Monday, August 23, 2010 | By: Reenie

Tomorrow is another day

Sometimes I wish that my days had more hours...

... on those days- it frustrates me endlessly to come home, eat, read, sleep, wake up, go to work, come home... *rinse well and repeat forever*...

Today is one such day.

Am I not lucky that tomorrow is indeed another day? Oh yes, I definitely am.

It is something of much amazement that it is the same sun that rises everyday... and yet, it brings us so many different days... and with some new days, comes new hopes... some of those do survive till the end of the day.

I hope tomorrow is one such day.
Sunday, August 22, 2010 | By: Reenie

This weekend....

.... I gave up on being good and got an iPad.

The guilt pangs for being a little too extravagant than my liking lasted about 2 seconds... and after those tormenting 2 seconds, I am almost embarrassingly happy with my new toy...

If you are wondering- Yes, the Kindle stays and so does the iPhone... for reading a book, Kindle is still my favourite; for my daily blog browsing- though- iPad beats ‘em all... and after using an iPhone, I don’t think I can ever be able to use any other phone ever again. I am scarred forever.

I am such a gadget girl!
Thursday, August 19, 2010 | By: Reenie

Techy Joy Toy :D

See the picture below? Now who, of my wonderful blogland friends, can guess why I moved to this new commenting platform?


Give it a try... there are clues in form of black and blue arrows!!!!

Can you tell me what is happening (blue arrow) once you put your site address in the 'Site URL' (black arrow)?

Yup! You guessed it right- it is showing off your latest post!!!! I'm shamelessly excited, as you can see; so much that my 'inner techy' is very very keen to show off this new toy to the whole world; hence this post.

What do you think? Do you still think that it's too complicated, or do you also think it's cool?
Wednesday, August 18, 2010 | By: Reenie

Here and Now

They tell me that he is going back home and my heart skipped a beat...

... because unlike many others that I left behind, he is someone I do care for. He is... say- someone I grew up with, someone I share a considerable percentage of DNA with, someone from those dark times of my life, someone I can relate to only when he is trying to get clean- while he is in a rehab perhaps; someone- despite whose irresponsible and erratic bouts of temper tantrums- I love... someone I prefer to have a physical distance with and yet it makes me feel exceptionally guilty when I do...

Yes, ‘that someone’ is going home, this coming Sunday, from a drug addiction rehabilitation center- starting afresh; a second take on life. My heart did skip a beat; and then- I forced myself to tear my mind away from it all...

Here- however- thousands of miles away from where all this is happening, this coming Sunday is a day I am catching up with some friends from my new life- those that I have not seen awhile... so, I force myself to focus on this easy little happy fact- because, you see- for me- the process of ‘starting afresh’ began many years back... and, through all these years of my being, life has taught me a a few things about 'expectations', ‘hope’, ‘disappointments’ and 'survival'.
Tuesday, August 17, 2010 | By: Reenie

Fluency

I know many may find it weird- the way I fill my brains with numbers- printed off in papers and marked in yellow, green, orange and blue... little notes here and there, little sketches around the corners... my worksheets are always marked with many colourful markers and I never have many drafts; just one- or two at max; it helps me focus better when I see those handwritten notes and strange little drawings that my hands make while my brain talks to those printed numbers.

They sometimes call me a ‘genius’, sometimes they’d settle for ‘a wiz’, or- if it is my friend, John- he calls me ‘brains’. They say it with a lot of ‘affection’ too, so I guess it’s all good. Only that- I’m none of those, I am just someone who speaks the language of numbers... just like the ICT support guy is with computers, the engineer is with machines, my dad is with his patients... we all have different kinds of buckets where we soak our brains in till the data becomes information, alphabets become words, words become sentences, till those loose beads become a beautiful earring.... till the little bits and pieces start to make sense....

I am none of those; and yet I don’t complain- partly because I like the indulgence in their voices and mostly because I don’t know what to say, ‘I’m not a genius, I am just fluent in Numbers’? Nah, even I think that sounds weird! I accept it with a smile instead; because after all- it is ‘numbers’ that I’m fluent in- not words!

Now... what is YOUR ‘fluency’, if I may ask? :)
Sunday, August 15, 2010 | By: Reenie

The corner that I am most partial to... :)

Sundays are nice; would have been nicer if the thoughts of the upcoming Monday did not bother me like it usually does- but as it stands at this moment.... it’s Sunday NOW, there’s LOTS of food in the fridge (yaay, grocery!), the menu for tonight is cabbage-beef (yum!) that I cooked, the kitten- after bouts of hairball attack yesterday- seems to be doing well today, there’s a Crazy boy sharing this sofa with me with his nose stuck in many Statistical equations (what a douche!), we have the BEST room heater in the whole UNIVERSE and it’s raining 'cats, mice and dogs'!

In other words, it’s a nice Sunday over here in this corner of the Earth :); enviable, quiet, happy – all wrapped up in a little cute word, ‘nice’... and for once, I’m finding it not too hard to keep the Monday out of my mind....

Monday will come, as it always does... but Sundays are still nice and I'm trying to enjoy it as much as I can while it lasts. I hope the whole world is having a happy Sunday. *blows a kiss*

PS: The rickshaw in the photograph is something I got from Dhaka this time, the photo frame was a gift from Crazy's brother's new fiancée (it says, 'I love my cat'- and guess what- it's right!), the Kermit is holding a banner of La Trobe University- which btw is where I graduated from...
Saturday, August 14, 2010 | By: Reenie

Maintenance work is going on in this Blog....

If you are visiting my blog now, at this minute- please make yourself comfortable and browse through my other posts...

I am currently working on my blog template and I am creating this post to test... I plan to delete it once it serves it's purpose... :)

Please ignore it if you can. I'm sorry if I am hurting your head!

Anyway... Have a great weekend!!!!

Edit- 10 minutes later:

On second thought.... can you please leave a comment in this post.... it will help me greatly to test the 'CommentLuv' plugin that I'm trying to install :)... and while you are at it.... some feedback on the new commenting platform, perhaps?

Thank you in advance!
Thursday, August 12, 2010 | By: Reenie

Salt water and Sea foams...

You know who those white ocean foams remind me of? Little Mermaid... remember how she turned into ocean foams when the charming prince that she had fallen in love with did not love her back? I always thought that ‘The Little Mermaid’ is a beautiful story... Yes- a sad one perhaps, but beautiful nonetheless...

... It still is my second-most favourite fairy tale of all time. Can anyone guess which one would be my ‘most favourite’? Also, would you agree with me if I said that most fairy tales, under their veils of childlike simplicity has much deeper messages of wisdom tucked away somewhere?

... oh, and while we are at it, would you tell me what your most favourite fairy tale is?

Tuesday, August 10, 2010 | By: Reenie

Colour Contastic

I am contesting in the ‘What is your best blog post for July?’ on The Colour Magazine.

What can I say? I was so tempted to give it a try! I always loved writing and I figured that it will certainly not hurt to get some exposure for what I love doing!

The post submitted, has to be a July one and the one I chose to submit is The Time Between. As I see it- regardless of who wins and who does not, it will be interesting to see the results and maybe discover some quality writers whose blogs I may enjoy reading... right?

... so there I go- do wish me luck, will you?
Monday, August 9, 2010 | By: Reenie

Gold & Blue

It was one sunny day today- I saw the disobedient rays of dazzle peeping through my dark blue curtains every once in a while; and I saw the kitten occasionally choosing that ONE lighted spot between me and the sky, I saw the dazzle rushing in when I opened the door for Crazy in the evening- puffy eyed, covered in cat hair and still in my pyjamas squinting my eyes at the sun...

It was a sunny day... with bright, rejuvenating sunlight; flocks of magpies in the front yard and the clearest blue sky. I am usually happy on sunny days... with extra rhythm in my steps and the brightest smile on my face... but today was different. It was a rather unfortunate sunny day- because on a day as beautiful as today, I had to stay in the house locking the sunlight out out out- my dark blue thick curtains in place to do its' job while I was there- puffy eyed, covered in cat hair and in my pyjamas from morning till night. What a bad day to have such a bad migraine. What a waste of those beautiful rays of Gold..!!!

I wonder when is the next time I'll get a day like this one sans the migraine? *Sigh*

[Art Credit: Vegetable Assassin]
Saturday, August 7, 2010 | By: Reenie

Social Saturday: Sunshine Blog Award

Yet another ‘thank you’ is in order; this time to another fellow blogerette of mine- Mehreen from The Perfect Line- for the wonderful Sunshine Blog Award and for saying cute stuff like:
Reenie and little Sherkhan -- A wonderful addition to my Blogsville friends. I love her posts any day, any time!


Thank you, m’dear :)... both little Sherkhan and I thank you greatly for reading and thinking that we were worthy... I, for one, always always always loved it when someone complimented me on my writing.

May I also say that you are a wonderful writer yourself? Of course I can and I just did! Howzzat?

Here is the award:



Once again... merci beaucoup, miss Sunshine. I am très happy.


Inspired by the idea of ‘sharing the love’ in Mehreen’s blog post, I would like to dedicate ANY award that I get (from now on) with a few worthy friends:

1. Jacqueline and her kitties from Jacqueline’s Cat House: Jacqueline is my new friend, we are bonded by our love for cats- Jacqueline takes care of FIVE (and sometimes six) gorgeous kitties... with her compassion and kindness, she is unique. Thank you, honey, for being you.

2. Kea from Musings on a Small Life: Kea is also my new friend. I can tell that she is probably one of the most insightful people in my blogosphere. Thank you, lovely Kea- you are amazing.

3. Jenny and Charlie from Ten Lives and Second Chances: If you need a laugh, it is Jenny’s blog that you should go to. I envy her ability of saying the difficult things in the lightest manner.

4. Agnes from Agnes’ Pages: I know Agnes has already received this award from Mehreen, but here is one from me as well. Agnes is beautiful and amazing... and she knows how to spend just a few words and say a lot.

5. Veggie from The Vegetable Assassin: Veggie is one of MY first readers, from back in our LiveJournal days (was it really SIX YEARS BACK??!! ); and I still love her political incorrectness to bits!

6. Meera from Romancing Life: I believe she is my youngest reader (she’s 20!)... and the most ‘positive’ one too, at least in her writings. I know I have said this before... but I hope that you always always keep it up, little friend!

Have a FANTABULOUS weekend everyone!
Thursday, August 5, 2010 | By: Reenie

Eleven: the tale of two 1’s

It was many years back that we met for the first time. I remember it well... he was sitting in our college cafeteria- longish black hair and a kind of aloofness about him- like a guy who does not give a damn; there is a raw masculinity about him that sort of drew me in- but I did not ponder on it much- I had a lecture to attend after all and well, I was sort of ‘boring’.

He did not talk much, all he did was a little nod when a mutual friend introduced us to each other. I was coming from ‘English’ and going to ‘Economics’... hence I hurried off, left him there with the group... I noticed the close friend of mine who was in ‘English’ with me almost hyperventilating at his ‘good looks’. Hmm... Interesting!

... and when I did look back, I saw him stealing a glance... so I wasn’t imagining it, he was looking at me. Très Interesting!

The walk from English to Economics was a small one... but the journey had already started. 11 years down the line, I now know that he is the best thing that has ever happened to me. Somewhere along the line I came to know that the ‘aloofness’ about him is a facade... that he is loving, loyal and unique- and that he cared for me. Yes, me... he could have many others and yet he chose me.

He chose to ‘fix’ me... The person that I am today is a much improved version of who I was 11 years back. I call him Crazy, because who- in his right mind- will take so much trouble otherwise? But I’m glad he did though. 11 years after- I am so used to the silly jokes, the twisted sense of humour, that arched smile, those dancing eyes- I’m glad he exists. I’m glad for the sanity check and the way he makes me believe that even on my darkest days, life is worth living; and that even with my childhood issues and insanity, I am fixable; that ‘future’ is vastly in my hands.

‘Thank you’ did not seem enough, so I gave him my heart instead- while I was securely holding his... and 11 years passed in a blink.

PS: Care sharing YOUR story with me? I am ‘very’ interested.
Wednesday, August 4, 2010 | By: Reenie

A morning of Smiles, Sparrows and Pigeons

I smiled at that one little sparrow hanging out with a big group of pigeons. It was a rather cute sight... a little brown sparrow with a group of a hundred grey pigeons... and I smiled.

... when I looked up, I saw their human friend smiling at me- the old man with a loaf of bread. He feeds them every day, you know? I know that is one of the reasons why there are always so many morning pigeons in the York Street... they come here for him, for the food, for the love...

It is one of the nicest things of my mornings- wading through though pigeons on my walk to work. I’m thankful to the old man for his pigeons in my mornings... I know that he is the ’Pied piper of Pigeons’ in the beautiful York Street that I love so much...

... but I don’t tell him that; I never was much of a ‘talker’, you see? I just smile back and I walk past... my fashionable brown formal office shoes wading through a hundred pigeons... and that one little brown sparrow... in the silver morning light.

It was a beautiful morning for me. How was your morning, btw?
Monday, August 2, 2010 | By: Reenie

Somebody leave the lights on- just in.. just in case I like the dancing- I can remember where I come from

Yesterday was ‘Friendship Day’. I would not have remembered it if not for the blog entries by many and my Facebook Wall flooding with ‘friendship day’ wishes. I do not have many friends, but it is always nice to be remembered by the few that I have.

Yesterday was also my mother’s birthday; yes- my mother’s. No one needed to remind me of that; I remembered it without any external effort. She moved into the beginning of her 53rd year on Earth over cups of Ceylon tea in the quiet nest that she shares with her husband of 31 years and a cat called Mushroom that that she now loves dearly... with a few phone calls, one of them from me....

She lives 9,063 kilometres away, you see?

This time on my visit to Dhaka, I saw her the happy; a little lonely perhaps, but happy... and when I heard that she was in tears when one day she thought Mushroom had run away- I was sure we could be friends. Yeah- I consider these as little signs, little sneak peeks to the insides of a person; so I extended my hand of friendship to her and I saw her doing the same.

As you see, the 18,000+ km journey last month has been rather significant in many ways... because this is the first friendship day where I got to wish my mother a Happy Friendship Day... as a friend; and a Happy Birthday... as a daughter and a friend.

[PS: To the wonderful readers of my blog- wishing a very happy friendship day to all of you. I cannot explain how much you all help me everyday... simply by being there and reading. Thank you.]

[Post Title courtesy: Tori Amos- Mother]
Sunday, August 1, 2010 | By: Reenie

Star Blog Award

Just a quick note to say thank you to a fellow blogerette in the cyber space, Meera from Romancing Life for believing I was worthy of the Star Blog Award on the occasion of her 100th post!

Thank you, Meera.

You are sweet.

I wish there will be many more 100s of posts from you as days come, and never let go of the amazing positive energy that you possess; it never fails to leave me in awe :)

Let smiles and happiness be always with you. Wishing you a wonderful life ahead.

-Reenie

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