Monday, September 19, 2011 | By: Reenie

... and though time goes by, I will always be... in a club with you in 1973*

Here I am… breaking it again: the promise that I WILL write a few lines everyday.

The last few days were again a blur… with random explosions of emotion, sadness, revelations and some (possible) mistakes. They were not good- the days; but I don’t want to talk about them…

You see, I’d rather talk about monkeys and cats because they are fun and easy :). Aren’t those the things you’d rather hear of anyway as well? :)

I will say this, however, that I’m not sure if I am finally doing something I should have done a long time back- or just making the biggest mistake of my life… but the arrow has been shot and I’m now seeing it go. That’s all I can do, I guess…

… and also I’m considering seeing a therapist... you know, regularly. I gathered I need to. I need to.


On a happy note, Sher- my kitten- loves me very much… and whoever thought that things like this alone cannot make you go on- are dead wrong; because they can. And they are.

*Title credit: 1973 by James Blunt
Monday, September 12, 2011 | By: Reenie

Four

Do not stand at my grave and weep,
I am not there; I do not sleep.
I am a thousand winds that blow,
I am the diamond glints on snow,
I am the sun on ripened grain,
I am the gentle autumn rain.
When you awaken in the morning’s hush
I am the swift uplifting rush
Of quiet birds in circling flight.
I am the soft starlight at night.
Do not stand at my grave and cry,
I am not there; I did not die. 
- Elizabeth Frye, 1932

I remember thinking of this poem around the time my grandmother died. It's been 4 years now, almost. It's strange to think that 4 years back, on a September day... my world had gotten a little smaller.

Dida, forever missed. 

Sometimes when I think of her, her absence speaks to me... then there are times when I feel she is right there inside of me... but most of the times, despite the pain and sadness of her parting- and despite knowing that I will never ever see her again, I'm glad I was an important part of HER life...

... as she was in mine.

Four long years and many more to come, I guess...

I miss you Dids. I wish you never left... and I wish my heart and my brain could trick me into believing in some kind of an afterlife for just once so that I could hope to see you again.
Sunday, September 11, 2011 | By: Reenie

Nobody said it was easy; no one ever said it would be so hard*

In my recent effort to write (if only) a few lines everyday, I have again realized how empty my brain is these days... it's strange, in a way, I guess... and not something who has never suffered from clinical depression will understand... at least, not fully.

It's not as dark as it is foggy; not quite as much pain or sorrow as much it is just... numbness. In my head, on my bad days, all voices are muffled and even if they were not, I could not care less anyway...

... and the 'awake' state on those days is much like the 'slumber' state... not fully awake, not fully sleeping; and not quite there either.

So... yeah, as I was saying, the brain is still empty; and yet the fog is clearing... I can tell, can't you? :)

*Title credit: The Scientist by Coldplay. 


Saturday, September 10, 2011 | By: Reenie

I'd rather be a comma... than a fullstop... *

I have been on a Coldplay spree. 

It may have been brought on by the upcoming release of their new song... or, as always, just plain and simple Chris Martin. I have always had this (not-so) secret crush on him anyway :). Too bad he is married to the gorgeous Gwyneth Paltrow and I, of course, do not stand a chance... LOL!

A girl can dream though, no harm in that :).

It's been a good day. Because even all else aside- Coldplay or not, Chris Martin or not- there is very few things in this world that is as good as a lazy Saturday... and that is exactly how my today has been.

Before I go today, something for you to listen to... [even if you think Coldplay is not your cup of tea :), it definitely is mine- and I think this song ROCKS!]...



All I need now is a few more days like this and a few more songs like that- and I will be as good as new :)

*Title Courtesy: Every Teardrop is a Waterfall- Coldplay. 



Friday, September 9, 2011 | By: Reenie

Something.... Anything....

I have said my goodbyes to uni-brows and bushy eyebrows today. After a short visit to the salon- I look and feel slightly more 'human' than I did in weeks, maybe months even. It's strange how burdened those extra bits of 'hair' can make you feel! I gather it's better to be miserable in style (as Agnes had put it quite some time back in a comment to one of my posts) than otherwise. I'm aiming for that. Wish me luck, quick! Wish me luck coz I need it... it's just too easy to get me down these days :).

In other news, I am eagerly waiting for the new Coldplay song, Paradise, that's coming out on the September 12.


Only one teaser of the lyrics that was released today:

When she was just a girl she expected the world, but it flew away from her reach...
... so she ran away in her sleep and dreamed of paradise...

Sad, yet beautiful. Melancholy, yet resonating.... much like many other things in the world that make and break LIFE, don't you think?

Sunday, September 4, 2011 | By: Reenie

.... of Meows and Purrs

When my coworker heard about Sher’s past history of pancreatitis- the first response I got from her is- ‘Don’t be cruel to him, Reenie, put him down’.

What a terrible thing to say…

… specially given that Sher is a rather healthy kitten now- the pancreatitis has not been back for about a year (*touchwood*) and he has never been happier…and this is precisely what I was telling her.

… and to suggest that I am being ‘cruel’ to my Sher- guess that was pretty insensitive too.

I’m finding it hard to say it right now- but the said coworker is actually a nice person… she bakes cakes on everyone’s birthdays, she remembers little details about you, she is the mommy of the department… but that one thing she said to me is all that I hear when I see her these days.

‘… put him down’…

… what a terrible… terrible thing to say.

Maybe there will be a day when I will be able to forgive her for her one insensitive advise, I just know that day is not todayor tomorrow... or any day in the near future.

Please have a look at the photograph- my Sher is watching birdies from the open door- healthy and happyHow can someone even suggest ‘putting him down’?!
Thursday, September 1, 2011 | By: Reenie

Not Half Enough

You know what they say about depression, right? They say ‘admit you have a problem… and half your problem is gone’. Well… maybe not in so many words, but that definitely is the gist… but do notice, will you, it says ‘half’...?

Now, I admit it. I have a problem: I have gotten myself into a rut… or in a dark long tunnel… or in a cave where the sunlight cannot find a way to.


How? I honestly don’t know. I guess I lost my way while walking into the woods… or maybe I fell into a cavity of some sort while I wasn’t paying attention… may be that is how my insides always were under the façade that somehow washed away

But that’s beside the point. It’s rather the other half of the problem, per se, that leaves me clueless... because I so want to come out of this tunnel/ cave/ phase/ whatever… I really do.

… I just have no bloody idea how to.



Wednesday, August 10, 2011 | By: Reenie

Whereabouts...

So... yea, where was I?

 Literally saying- right here actually...

Figuratively though, maybe not. I have been somewhere and yet... not really anywhere.

But then- the past few months were but a blur, to say the least.

Changes? There has been a few. For one, we do not live in our little red house anymore; we now live in a green one- in a quite street that goes by the name Young... the change of scene has been like a breath of fresh air. I needed it, I guess.

This green house is a nice one... and for a homebug like me- a nice house is... umm... nice.

Life has been busy... there has been some struggles, most of the time I lost to the faceless monster... but perhaps I won some too. After all, it is none other than me who's sitting here writing, in a pretty green house surrounded by the little kitten and the man for whom I mean the world...

... and for me who mean the universe.

So yea- I was here. Right here; even when I did not know it myself a lot of times.

How have YOU been, btw? And do you remember me still? :)
Thursday, July 7, 2011 | By: Reenie

A Tribute: End of a (Silver) Era

We came back home to a broken car yesterday- our old car, a beautiful Silver-coloured Vectra that we were to put up on carsales.com.au for selling (we got a new car last month). Some car had smashed it while it was parked in front of our house and drove away… without doing the decent thing… just left it there- damaged, broken, un-recoverable.

It was our first car as a couple; sad it had to come to that.

Goodbye- our pre-loved Silver car. We had wished someone else will drive you perhaps to move to their first home, to bring their first child home from the hospital, to start their lives as independent adults; we had wished you will be loved by another altogether again… which were not to be.

… but we will remember you always, fondly, as a car for which we were the lasts to experience many of our firsts.
Tuesday, June 28, 2011 | By: Reenie

Just like that

I have never had many friends; but I do have a few… and I have lost some too. For some time, I thought I lost her as well- a friend I called my best… I mean, there she was one fine morning, my best friend, and the next morning- she flew out of my radar… just like that, after 15-years of friendship.

… and then two years and much haps-and-mishaps later- there was a little something shining on my social networking ‘wall’, a 1 liner: I miss you.

I knew I missed her too… but a part of me struggled to let go of the past 2-years’ hurt, asking questions in the line of ‘just like that?’

… but the other part- the bigger and perhaps the much more naïve part- said- ‘Yes, just like that. She’s THAT friend- remember-the one you said was your best…?’

The bigger part won- because it was meant to, because there are bigger things in the world than the grudges we hold; and because- in truth- to me, there never was anything bigger than love… and I let her in again.

So we are back to being friends again now… as it seems, just like that.
Tuesday, May 31, 2011 | By: Reenie

Epic

Mistakes and follies, loves and hates, likes and dislikes, health and sickness… most of the times though- none of those; just polite indifference.

Emotions- some little ones and some strong… they float and they take shapes and colours- the shapes are now circles and the colours are light, they begin where it ends and ends where it begins… they stay with me- always and never.

Pirates of the Caribbean’ is in the theatres this week and ‘The Lord of the Rings’ is in my Kindle. Pirates can wait, while I get to know the Hobbits… or maybe not- maybe I can have the Pirates and the Hobbits; who said I need to choose?

Up until now, I never knew of the rich world Tolkien had created with his pen and his brain… Why did everyone keep telling me to not even attempt to read ‘The Lord of the Rings’ because it is ‘boring’?! More importantly, why did I listen?

I’m not unhappy anymore; and I am no longer feeling the urge to run away. I am, once again, absorbing it in so that I am a part of it as it is mine. Those hard red squares are now light yellow wiggly circles… it’s all blending in.

… and that’s a good thing, mostly.
Thursday, May 26, 2011 | By: Reenie

IT'S MY SITS DAY!!!

I am going to make a fun announcement today.

Guys & Girls, I am today’s Featured Blogger in SITS!

Yay!

Those of you who would like to know what SITS is- start by clicking this link. It is a nice website I visit [almost] daily- for new finds, tips or new blogs to read… if you would like to be a Featured Blogger one day- here is where you will find the rules and the form too.

Go on! Get going now!

How to Blog

It’s fun already!

IT’S MY SITS DAY, YAY!

In other news- there is likely to be a lot of visitors at my blog today and I’m guessing (hoping?) that this post will have many comments while the blog is in spotlight... and I, too, hope to find some new blogs to follow and read!

So- while you are here, my new visitors and old [you didn't think I'll forget you- did you?], please make yourselves at home.

I'm absolutely glad to have you all in my space!

Cheers!
Monday, May 23, 2011 | By: Reenie

Amo La Vida

A trip to the beautiful shop near my work, 4 birthday gifts [for friends’ birthdays that went by recently and one that was coming up this weekend] and spending quite some amount of money later, I felt so merry…

I guess the weekend had hit me finallyand then the rest of it remained delightful through and through. Retail therapy has worked for me more often than not, after all.

It helps to remember that if the source of my much distress [aka job] has to go, so does this expensive therapy [aka retail]. I mean it when I say that it’s not the money I love- but rather it the things that money can buy…

… and then- sometimes it’s not even the ‘things’, it’s the act of ‘buying’. Please tell me you know what I mean? :)

In other semi-related news- the name of the mentioned shop is ‘Amo La Vida’; and for some ‘vaguely-explicable’ reason I like that very much :)
Thursday, May 19, 2011 | By: Reenie

‘Nearly’ As Good As it Gets

I may not know a lot of things and the decisions I make may not always be the best ones… but I know this much...


... that no matter what- I did make some right ones in my life and now...

... I am one of those who ‘gets’ it when Melvin tells Carol ‘You make me want to be a better man'.

[Reference, the movie- As Good As it Gets].

Are you?



[Image Credit: Wikipedia]
Wednesday, May 18, 2011 | By: Reenie

Seek

In the last few months, I have done many a thing that I’m not proud of.

I beat myself over them for about a month; one thing about clinical depression is that it can sneak up on you from the smallest unattended crack and turn you into a person much worse than, well… you; so there I was- in that murky place inside my head- wondering where did the sun go…


Then, about a few hours back- I decided to let it go and forgive myself… lock that murky place up [ and perhaps loose the key] and seek out the sun.

True- I am still not happy about the things I did [or almost did]: I ‘almost’ quit my job, deferred my CPA segment exam, stopped reading EVERYONE’s blog, stopped writing in all three of my blogs, slept a lot and missed my dead grandmother like crazy

… overall I have been much more of a ‘quitter’ than a ‘survivor’, but well… things happen.

I want to be back; and I wish- finally this time around- I can too.

PS: Thank you for sticking with me all this time. It means more than you’d probably know :)

[Image Credit: Crazy]
Friday, May 13, 2011 | By: Reenie

Trio

This day last year- Pekky and I had arranged a small cake for our friend, Sal.

It wasn't much- just a small cheesecake from the grocery store nearby brought at the work lunch to mark the day. It was small, quite and unceremonious- but it was important for us that we do 'something' for our friend on her birthday- and we did the little we could in our tight work routine- it was fun though- all three of us are the 'private' sort, so it worked out happy :).

Then again last year, when Sal went to the U S of A- she brought in a bagful of Hershey's 'Kisses' for me and Pekky. I never was a fan of chocolates- but that bag was precious- it reminded me that I was important enough... it made me happy.

This year, all three of us from three different locations, longed for those little moments of happiness friendship often brings. I guess I miss them more than I realize most of the times. I guess they do too.

Has it really been a year already?

Time flies, doesn't it?

I miss them. Work is not the same anymore and I guess I am admitting that I am a little lonely these days.

It's been a while no one has done those little precious things for me (not counting Crazy). It's been a while I have not done them either (again, not counting Crazy).

Today, I miss our little quiet lunches, simple grocery store cakes, a bagful of Hershey's, the comfort of having a 'friend' beside... and a lunchtime to look forward to.

Today I miss Pekky and Sal.

Today, I know that despite my many reservations about friendship- some have worked out great and I have indeed made a few great friends.

How's that for a happy thought? :)


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Monday, May 9, 2011 | By: Reenie

Wintry

… this morning Sher woke me up… and then, we walked and trotted around the house on our two legs and four… to turn the heater on… to sit on the sofa for a while… to meow and coo… to purr, knead and cuddle… all of it just for a little while.

… then, I had to get out of our little comfy den to the bad, cold, frosty, chilly world…

… like the rest of the world. I’m not special, I know :).

… but yes, Melbourne is frosty these days- bed socks are out, heaters are turned full-on all day, instant soups are back in the grocery list as cold coffee is out… I bought a few nice stockings and covered shoes- outdoors is slightly better after that, but even then… Winter is not really my season.

It feels strange to think that in another hemisphere, Winter- the season that feels so alien to me now- was the season that I was born in…


PS: Hope the weather’s better over where you are :)


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Wednesday, May 4, 2011 | By: Reenie

Eureka

I could finally pinpoint it... I now know.

What I have actually lost is faith in some people- some seemingly insignificant people in the broader view of things, but people I see/ saw every day nonetheless... and one of those I trusted [there are not many that I do] and don’t anymore.

That’s what’s causing it... that’s why I’m so awkward these days and so ‘demotivated’.

Finding this answer was important. I can now set my focus back on things-more important things- like blogging, or shoes, or nail polishes, or reading my favourite blogs :).

Peace is not far away, my friends. I will be back... soon enough.

PS: I miss Blogging. Hope you all are well :)
Monday, May 2, 2011 | By: Reenie

A Lifetime

Crazy typing out his assignment- eyes stuck to his MacBook monitor, me sitting on the floor sorting out papers, the furkid on the sofa lazily looking at us between cat naps- belly up.

I make an idle comment while placing the AGL bill to the ‘keep’ pile, ‘This year, it will be our 12th year together and our 7th year of marriage

He nods, turns his lips and smiles- all the while keeps typing.

Basically, spent my whole life with you- didn’t I?’, I say casually, smiling and perhaps with a hint of mock despair...

His smile broadens a little and he nods again... eyes still stuck on the monitor, but the expression much softer.

I smile and go back to the papers. This guy nods a lot. He nodded at me the first time we met... no ‘hello’, no ‘nice to meet you’- just a smile and a nod. I thought that was cute- none of us are big talkers, after all.

We came to adore each other’s words and silences through the years.

After all we HAVE spent almost our WHOLE lives together, haven’t we?
Tuesday, April 19, 2011 | By: Reenie

A Patch of Rough

I am making it official... I am taking a break from blogging.

I will be back though... may be... possibly... in all likelihood. I say it because I always have. It may be a week, a month, a year, a few years... it may even be tomorrow.

But today I am pondering a possibility of a healthy break- without any guilt or deadlines in my mind- with every effort to re-find a little bit of myself first... I have not been able to for quite some time now.

Let’s see how I go, shall we?

Meanwhile if you need to contact me, need my help, need to catch up with me or even ever... maybe... miss me- consider sending me a note at emcie at y7mail dot com or my Gmail, the pleasure will be all mine.

Till we meet again, FAREWELL.
Wednesday, April 13, 2011 | By: Reenie

Baby, it’s cold outside...

It is cold today.

... very cold- for me at least [8c; for the record: any temperature in single digits is cold for me]- the kind that gives me a headache, makes me crave for a cup of warm soup and turns me into a useless mash of shivering fleshes and clunking bones...

I would leave work early today, if it didn’t mean that I’d have to step out in this cold and if I wasn’t so tired. I wish someone made me hot chicken soup and magically teleported me home.

... or gave me something to combat this insane lethargy and then made me hot chicken soup and magically teleported me home.

Meanwhile, please do me a little favour: if Summer has gone your way, enjoy her to the fullest- will you? She deserves it...

... and so do YOU.
Friday, April 8, 2011 | By: Reenie

... accept the things I cannot change



Some ‘soul-searching’ is in order, and regardless of if I get some answers or not, so is some ‘moving-on’.

... because, you see, we only have one life...

... and it goes on... whether we live it or not.
Friday, April 1, 2011 | By: Reenie

Kelinedara

I can now bite my tongue, because after much meanness towards Crazy for his WoW-addiction [not an illegal drug btw, just a computer game] - I am now reasonably addicted to it myself.

... it all started with Crazy finding an excuse in installing it to my MacBook... that vindictive man, he must have known! I should have known too. I did always have a thing for fantasy worlds after all [think Hogwarts!].

You meet my ‘toon’ though... she is a blood elf by race, a warlock by class, a herbalist by profession, has a blood elf mage mentor/ friend called Craziel [that’s Crazy btw], has a cute pet minion demon called Piptai, knows dark magic, can be a potentially dangerous opponent in a battlefield...


... she is also me- a prettier version of me, but ‘me’ nonetheless. I now live in Falconwing Square in a world called Frostmourne...

... my name is Kelinedara. I like to believe I exist :).
Monday, March 28, 2011 | By: Reenie

Remote Control

I have realized some time back that one of the ways to be happy is by teaching yourself to define happiness in the terms you can control... for example, instead of thinking ‘I wish he does that, then I’ll be happy’, think ‘I am happy because I am doing what makes me happy’; because the only person you can control is yourself... if your happiness is in control of others- your source of happiness is more uncertain than you’d imagine.

Same goes for ‘grievances’. Stop bothering with what others do or say; I still have a long way to go- but really, I have no intent of doing it any other way. I have had my own struggles, true... but then, who doesn’t?

In the past, I have been criticized for my ways- my atheism, my choice of Crazy, my dislike for chocolates, my choice of animals... but at the end of the day- the idea of God still does not sit with me, it is 11 years now I am happily together with that same boy, I still hate chocolates and I still think cats are wonderful...

... those are my biggest ‘happys’ [well, except the chocolates]- my ‘strawberries’, as Kea would put it... and if ‘they’ are sad because these things are unchanged and I am still insufferable... well- too bad, I say... it works for me.

I think ‘differences’ between individuals is beautiful- it makes each of us unique- it’s wonderful... too bad not all agree. But yes, I suggest you learn from it and move on.

I am not important enough, trust me, don’t give me that remote control of your happiness.
Thursday, March 24, 2011 | By: Reenie

One at a Time

My gramma passed away a few years back and up until that point in my life- I never knew what being ‘bereft’ actually meant... and thousands of miles away from where she was, broke- financially and otherwise- and bereft like I was, I discovered that I cannot make 'sympathy' phonecalls.

Sometimes I cannot even receive those calls, I learnt that too.

But today- on the onset of the passing of Elizabeth Taylor- I think I will make one... to my mother- because she always thought Ms. Taylor was absolutely gorgeous...

I realize that the death of a stage icon is so much easier to talk about; than that of the person who walked with you to the elementary school- with your little hand into hers- chuckles, white ribboned plaits, a Popeye school bag, light-blue school uniform and the sunrise for company...

... strange how these memories bring back all sort of other little memories- like how she smelt and how her voice sounded like... and in my mind I kinda relive those magical moments... and makes me wish for moments gone by- not days, mind you- just some moments; some impossibly sweet moments of the distant past.

It will still take some more time, it seems, till I can be ‘okay’ with the impossibility of her death- but I'm getting there- one baby-step at a time... a public blog-post about her, for a start... yup, a post that says that she smelt of Jasmines, she smiled a lot, she was crazy witty, she loved me and I miss her...

... babysteps, indeed, one at a time...
Wednesday, March 23, 2011 | By: Reenie

Good things in Small packages

Last night the kitten slept on my face...

... and after a little getting used to with his furs all over my face, I fell asleep to the sounds of the softest purrs ringing in my ears like a sweet lullaby. He missed me while I was gone on the Boat, it seems...

I am loved. Need to remember that.

And then- while I was cruising on the beautiful Murray, I had my wonderful bloggie-buddy Carol from Facing 50 with Humour feature my blog at hers... with the kindest and warmest of words.

Thank you so much Carol, did I say that you are wonderful? :)

If you have never read Carol- please drop by at her blog, will you? Carol writes a happy, witty, fun blog with snippets of her life; guaranteed good quality positive energy- who can say ‘no’ to that? No one should :)

I have gained a few followers too... it always makes me so happy :). Welcome to my blog, everyone- old, new and friends of Carol. I surely am looking forward to getting to know ALL of you!

Blogging can be very rewarding sometimes; I should blog more. Need to remember that too :)

How was YOUR last few weeks btw?
Saturday, March 19, 2011 | By: Reenie

Big Dreams, Small Life

19.03.2011

'Endeavor' has sailed today with Crazy at the captain's seat and Ron at his side... me and Ren- roaming here and there, doing this and that...

Murray has been pretty as ever and the sunlight abundant... The shining sunlight on the waves of Murray has been the most delightful!

For some moments, I had this thought.... that maybe I would not mind this life really...

... this gypsy life with a 'moving home'... after all I never really cared WHERE I lived, as long as I had a corner of my own- where I can perhaps sit with a mug of chai with some sort of water within my view and the Internet on my lap, thoughts flowing with no social obligation for small talks, polite nods and conversations...

... out and away from the obligations that typical human companies often bring.

I don't know if it will ever be possible for me- to own a boat and make it a home- with kitchens, toilets, beds, food-filled fridge- but the thought of it is fun... and dream-worthy...

... indeed.

... maybe someday; nothing wrong with BIG dreams after all :)


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Friday, March 18, 2011 | By: Reenie

Serenity Now

18.03.2011

Sunshine, long drives, music, more sunshine, a riverboat called 'Endeavor'...

... a bunk bed facing a window... and here I am now watching the waves with the iPad on my lap...

We are not sailing today- rather we will start out tomorrow to the depths of the Murray river- but that does not make today unexciting... even the thought that I am surrounded by water, waves and river breeze makes me happy.

So while I savour some yummy citrusy mandarin while the same same breeze that is creating the waves on the river play with my hair...

I sort of know where I am.

I am on my way back to myself; and I needed the river to help me with the (at times) long- and still continuing- walk.

Ladies and Gentlemen, let me introduce Murray River to you...

For me, a delightful acquaintance with Murray today. After all, not many days in your life do you get to meet a brand new river!


PS: Wasn't it a grand idea to get the 3G SIM for the iPad before we started out? I think it was, because there are very few things in the world that can rival the serenity of this moment; AS WELL AS blogging about it too!

Saturday, March 12, 2011 | By: Reenie

Social Saturday: Four Things

The lovely Loree had (not so) recently tagged me in the 'Four Things Meme'. 

Loree is a wonderful blogger from Malta... in her blog she shares many photos of the exotic country and writes a blog that is an absolute pleasure to read. Why don't you visit her? I can promise that you won't be disappointed if you do! 

Here's my (most boring) answers... brace yourself :)




Four Shows I Watch

I do not watch TV, so this will not be absolutely accurate... but yes- the following four, if they are on TV on the rare occasions when I happen to watch- let's just say I won't flip the channel or turn off the telly.

1. House

2. Big Bang Theory

3. Friends

4. Burn Notice


Four Things I Am Passionate About

1. Cats, specially my Sherkhan

2. My home

3. My personal space

4. My Crazy


Four Phrases I Say A Lot

1. Whetever...

2. Bleh... oh well..

3. Oh, don't tell me...

4. What the...


Four Things I’ve Learned From The Past

1. The more things change, the more they remain the same.

2. Yes, I can :).

3. Hope is the mother of disappointment; and a soul that cannot hope is one that's ailing.

4. Sanity is overrated.


Four Places I’d Like To Go

1. New Zealand

2. Egypt

3. Maldives

4. Caribbean Islands


Four Things I Did Yesterday

1. Worked

2. Studied for my CPA qualifications

3. Watched sunrise

4. Ate left over food :D


Four Things I’m Looking Forward To

1. Our houseboat trip to Echuka

2. Our Australian Citizenship

3. Labour Day- Anzac Day long weekend

4. The Boy's Degree


Four Things I Love About Winter

1. The long shadows

2. Skirts, Stockings and Long Jackets

3. Quilts and Doonas

4. Winter birds


Four Things On My Wish List

1. The perfect shade of nail polish

2. A few million dollars

3. A house by the Beach

4. A huge shoe wardrobe FULL OF SHOES!


And now I need to tag four other blogs. I am trying to choose four that I have not tagged in the recent times, so come play and spread the fun!

1. Jacqueline at Jacqueline's Cat House

2. Meera at Romancing Life



[Rules: If you are tagged and would like to play- then say a line or two about the blog that has awarded you with a autolink to that blog, give your answers, tag four bloggers of your choice. Simple!] 
Friday, March 11, 2011 | By: Reenie

Pitter Patter

Days are gradually getting shorter now.

It was the first time this year when I stepped out of the front door last week- and the sensor light turned itself on... and the realization hit me at the same time the chilly wind did:

... it was darker then than it was at the same time earlier morning, and colder too.

I am about to get those stockings out of the closet, and those full-sleeved shirts and light sweaters... True, it is an understatement that I don’t like the cold... but I can still try to look good!

I figured that I would rather be fashionable and miserable than just plain miserable!

Do remember please before the word ‘vain’ crosses your mind... Days, here, are getting shorter and we all have our own ways of dealing with the dark; and (sometimes) it is mine.

That's all :)
Thursday, March 10, 2011 | By: Reenie

Series Spoonful: Potter v Cullens

Twilight Saga or Harry Potter for you? 

For me, it is Harry Potter... 

It is always Harry Potter... not in the 'Harry is my Love' kind of way, rather 'I wish there was a Hogwarts' way, or 'I wish this world was a little more *magical*' way.... 

No surprise here that as an avid reader of all Harry Potter books, and watcher of Harry Potter movies [well enough to know who played Cedric Diggory in the Harry Potter movie;) {It was the same person who played the *sparkling* vampire Edward Cullen in Twilight, btw- namely Robert Pattinson}] that...

.... I found this clip rather funny

But then, of course- I am not a Twilight fan, I do not like Edward Cullen and I don't care if vampires sparkle or not... nope, not one bit!

There is indeed a possibility that the Team Twilight may not find this clip very funny. Oops!

Haha... long live wit and sarcasm :); how dull the world would have been without either? 
Sunday, March 6, 2011 | By: Reenie

Birthdays [52p # 10]

I do not publicize my birth date.  

I do not have my birth date published on Facebook, I do not make birthday posts on Blogger, I do not make 'IT'S MY BIRTHDAY' tweets... I let the day pass as quietly as I can...

If you asked me why, I couldn't tell you. I don't know why... well, not entirely anyway... other than that I am a borderline paranoid person with semi-schizophrenic longing for personal space.

Don't get me wrong, I'm happy when it is remembered; and to be honest I am not fussed if it's not. For me, it is just another day when I am another day older... besides- if I have to remind it, it is just the same as 'forgotten' anyway

Crazy remembers, and yet helps me keep it quite... Crazy is great with gifts too... that, or being the gadget girl that I am, I am in the right frequency with him...

... this year it was a MacBook Air and a nice quite dinner at home... surrounded by love from BOTH my boys. After all, if not for these little moments- how'd I be sure that it was indeed a good thing that I was born after all...

... and at the end of the day, no matter how differently we all like celebrating our birthdays, those little happy choice moments is what makes it a GOOD one :).




This post is a part of the 52 Photos Challenge. If you’d like to join in- go on and link up in comments... !

Thursday, March 3, 2011 | By: Reenie

Ice and Water

I am cold... umm, are you cold too? I mean- those of you in this hemisphere [Southern, for the record]... the rest of the world is supposed to be cold at this time of the year, right?

I mean it’s Summer, and I know the thermometer is pointing to a pleasant 18c, I know the Sun is peeping out- but the fact remains- my hands are cold, feet icy and the shiver that is rising from somewhere deep within my chest...? ‘Brrr’ is the only word [which, too, is not really a word] I can say to that... and that too, rather unhappily.

Where did summer go? Has she gone off without saying goodbye or am I coming down with flu? Can I assume that the first did not happen and the second one will not? Come back, Summer. We’re not done with you yet!

I don’t think I can want to handle another winter just yet.
Tuesday, March 1, 2011 | By: Reenie

If wishes were horses, then things would be fine*

It will do me no good to want two very opposing things at the same time, will it? No, it won't... it certainly won't.


Actually not only will it do me no good, it will do me bad- because in doing it- while my mind is divided and torn, so is my life... and my peace of mind, oh... that ever-elusive dear friend of mine, is even farther away.

I have advised myself in the past to not to live by my devastating, uncontrollable and wild emotions- that I so easily succumb to- ever so often... the brain is there for a reason, right?

... but ask me if I paid any heed to my own advise ever- will you? ... or don’t... because I suspect I know what the answer to this might be...

How about YOU though? What rules you- brain or heart? For me, it's HEART.... it has always been heart; heart all the way.

Some days I'm okay with it... some other days though, I wish it wasn't the case.

[Title credit: ‘If Wishes were Horses’ by Annette Gisby]


Sunday, February 27, 2011 | By: Reenie

A Native Flower (52P # 9)

I am terrible when it comes to knowing the names of flowers... I hardly ever can.


I have no idea what this flower is called, but I love it nonetheless.

They whisper summer songs in my ears, they brighten up my pathways and they are absolutely gorgeous. I love

What do you think? Nice, aren't they?






This post is a part of the 52 Photos Challenge. If you’d like to join in- go on and link up in comments... !

Saturday, February 26, 2011 | By: Reenie

Social Saturday: Special Follower Award

Guess what, another award from Carol at Facing 50 with Humor... 

a Special Follower award! 

Yay, much happy and honoured- dear Carol! Thank you so much!

Now, I need to pass this award to two followers.

Since this is extremely difficult- and I want to pass this award to all the 75 followers that I have.

And I am.

I am breaking the rule 32.5-folds, I know- but you all are worth breaking rules for.

Thank you for following me :)
Wednesday, February 23, 2011 | By: Reenie

Laughter & Smiles

You just need to laugh at times- yea, just laugh, as simple as that- one of those brain-blinding laughsthe kind that when you laugh and your soul laughs with you.


… and at the end of the day- despite no more than little to no change in your outward surroundings- you look around and see life smiling at you.

… that beautiful, sun-kissed smile…

... I need to remember that more…

… and laugh more...

… because, of course- as I have always held- 80% of your life take place inside your head… sometimes all you need to do is to laugh and let your head know that things are just the way they should be…

… just as perfect as 'perfection' can get in real life...
Sunday, February 20, 2011 | By: Reenie

Carry you around (52P # 8)

I carry these with me whenever I get out the house...


... the phone, well... in this age and time, who doesn't?

... the Kindle with hundreds of books, always with me. 

... the purse, with many cards and just a little money.

... sunnies.

... the myki card [Melbourne's public transport travel card]. 

... house keys


What do you carry around when you get out of the house? 





This post is a part of the 52 Photos Challenge. If you’d like to join in- go on and link up in comments... !



Saturday, February 19, 2011 | By: Reenie

The Series of Saturday Spoonfuls: Typelyzer

This interesting website tells me what kind of a Blogger I am... it tells me that I am 'The Performer', and I think it may also be right... to some extent at least. Look what it says:


Interesting and a little bit of research told me that the most blogs I read are Performers, with a few others here and there (Nurturers, Thinkers, Artists).

Curious to know what kind of a Blogger  you are? Why don't you find it out yourself!

[With special thanks to Hope]
Thursday, February 17, 2011 | By: Reenie

For Annie

I wasn't going to make a post today... my mind still is exceptionally silent and the writer's block is still prevalent; but something happened which cannot go without words...

My wonderful friend Kea had to say goodbye to this lovely girl named Annie...


Annie has suffered a lot in the last month... and it is some sort of a consolation that she isn't anymore; it is an extremely hard time for Kea though... and if you have ever loved a cat, a dog or a ferret like your own child... you will have no doubt about how terrible this may be for the ones left behind.

If you can, please go over to visit her blog with a kind word or two.  2011 is certainly proving to be a year of sickness, losses and deaths so far.

Sunday, February 13, 2011 | By: Reenie

Kitchen (52P # 7)

Here it is... the Kitchen...


It may be small, but I think it is cute, airy and practical

Wanna show me yours? 







This post is a part of the 52 Photos Challenge. If you’d like to join in- go on and link up in comments... !


Saturday, February 12, 2011 | By: Reenie

Social Saturday: Stylish Blog Award

A few months back, I got a Stylish Blog Award from my bloggie-friend Carol from Facing 50 with Humour  [I did try to link to the blog post awarding me, but it seems to be not there anymore].


Thank you Carol, I surely am very pleased to have been considered to be 'stylish'... [hehe!]

Now- to the rules of accepting the award:

1. Thank and link back to the person who awarded you this.


2. Share 7 things about yourself.


3. Pay it forward to 15 great bloggers.



THE SEVEN THINGS:

1. When I need calming down, take me to some form of water- rain, storm, ocean, lake, river- it usually works.

2. I have a gift for numbers- sometimes I interprete... err... stuffs by numbers. To the extent that Sunday is 7, November is 11 and a Queen is 12...

3. I have toyed with ideas of having published words, simply because words are sometimes my effective source of solace; but decided against trying for it later- reasoning that I may not be bad with words, but I am not THAT good either... besides, we all need good hobbies and words can be mine.

4. I learnt karate while in high school. I think I have forgotten it all though.

5. I hate chocolates, muffins, cakes, doughnuts of almost any kind. I certainly do not have a sweet tooth. My least favourite flavour of ice-cream is Chocolate.

6. I am slightly Agoraphobic. I am terrified of roaches, spiders  and the sight of blood.

7. I am quiet, secretive and a freak for personal space... sometimes to an abnormal level.


PAYING IT FORWARD:

1. Anna at A Jobless Muse in her London Shoes

2. Kea at Musings on a Small Life

3. David at Our Inner Language

4. Sharon at Random Thoughts

5. Loree at Stories and Scribbles

6. Old Kitty at Ten Lives and Second Chances

7. Warm Sunshine at The Perfect Line

8. Shalmalee at The Soul

9. Harini at Unveiling Harini

10. Veggie-K at Vegetable Assassin

11. Shinjini at Modern Gypsy

12. Purple Butterfly at Confessions of an Idle Mind

13. Simz at Simz City

14. Brish at Snapshots

15. Agnes at Agnes' Pages

Yup, you are selected- but play only if you want to!

Thanks once again for the award, Carol!

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