Monday, March 28, 2011 | By: Reenie

Remote Control

I have realized some time back that one of the ways to be happy is by teaching yourself to define happiness in the terms you can control... for example, instead of thinking ‘I wish he does that, then I’ll be happy’, think ‘I am happy because I am doing what makes me happy’; because the only person you can control is yourself... if your happiness is in control of others- your source of happiness is more uncertain than you’d imagine.

Same goes for ‘grievances’. Stop bothering with what others do or say; I still have a long way to go- but really, I have no intent of doing it any other way. I have had my own struggles, true... but then, who doesn’t?

In the past, I have been criticized for my ways- my atheism, my choice of Crazy, my dislike for chocolates, my choice of animals... but at the end of the day- the idea of God still does not sit with me, it is 11 years now I am happily together with that same boy, I still hate chocolates and I still think cats are wonderful...

... those are my biggest ‘happys’ [well, except the chocolates]- my ‘strawberries’, as Kea would put it... and if ‘they’ are sad because these things are unchanged and I am still insufferable... well- too bad, I say... it works for me.

I think ‘differences’ between individuals is beautiful- it makes each of us unique- it’s wonderful... too bad not all agree. But yes, I suggest you learn from it and move on.

I am not important enough, trust me, don’t give me that remote control of your happiness.
Thursday, March 24, 2011 | By: Reenie

One at a Time

My gramma passed away a few years back and up until that point in my life- I never knew what being ‘bereft’ actually meant... and thousands of miles away from where she was, broke- financially and otherwise- and bereft like I was, I discovered that I cannot make 'sympathy' phonecalls.

Sometimes I cannot even receive those calls, I learnt that too.

But today- on the onset of the passing of Elizabeth Taylor- I think I will make one... to my mother- because she always thought Ms. Taylor was absolutely gorgeous...

I realize that the death of a stage icon is so much easier to talk about; than that of the person who walked with you to the elementary school- with your little hand into hers- chuckles, white ribboned plaits, a Popeye school bag, light-blue school uniform and the sunrise for company...

... strange how these memories bring back all sort of other little memories- like how she smelt and how her voice sounded like... and in my mind I kinda relive those magical moments... and makes me wish for moments gone by- not days, mind you- just some moments; some impossibly sweet moments of the distant past.

It will still take some more time, it seems, till I can be ‘okay’ with the impossibility of her death- but I'm getting there- one baby-step at a time... a public blog-post about her, for a start... yup, a post that says that she smelt of Jasmines, she smiled a lot, she was crazy witty, she loved me and I miss her...

... babysteps, indeed, one at a time...
Wednesday, March 23, 2011 | By: Reenie

Good things in Small packages

Last night the kitten slept on my face...

... and after a little getting used to with his furs all over my face, I fell asleep to the sounds of the softest purrs ringing in my ears like a sweet lullaby. He missed me while I was gone on the Boat, it seems...

I am loved. Need to remember that.

And then- while I was cruising on the beautiful Murray, I had my wonderful bloggie-buddy Carol from Facing 50 with Humour feature my blog at hers... with the kindest and warmest of words.

Thank you so much Carol, did I say that you are wonderful? :)

If you have never read Carol- please drop by at her blog, will you? Carol writes a happy, witty, fun blog with snippets of her life; guaranteed good quality positive energy- who can say ‘no’ to that? No one should :)

I have gained a few followers too... it always makes me so happy :). Welcome to my blog, everyone- old, new and friends of Carol. I surely am looking forward to getting to know ALL of you!

Blogging can be very rewarding sometimes; I should blog more. Need to remember that too :)

How was YOUR last few weeks btw?
Saturday, March 19, 2011 | By: Reenie

Big Dreams, Small Life


'Endeavor' has sailed today with Crazy at the captain's seat and Ron at his side... me and Ren- roaming here and there, doing this and that...

Murray has been pretty as ever and the sunlight abundant... The shining sunlight on the waves of Murray has been the most delightful!

For some moments, I had this thought.... that maybe I would not mind this life really...

... this gypsy life with a 'moving home'... after all I never really cared WHERE I lived, as long as I had a corner of my own- where I can perhaps sit with a mug of chai with some sort of water within my view and the Internet on my lap, thoughts flowing with no social obligation for small talks, polite nods and conversations...

... out and away from the obligations that typical human companies often bring.

I don't know if it will ever be possible for me- to own a boat and make it a home- with kitchens, toilets, beds, food-filled fridge- but the thought of it is fun... and dream-worthy...

... indeed.

... maybe someday; nothing wrong with BIG dreams after all :)

- Posted using BlogPress from my iPad

Friday, March 18, 2011 | By: Reenie

Serenity Now


Sunshine, long drives, music, more sunshine, a riverboat called 'Endeavor'...

... a bunk bed facing a window... and here I am now watching the waves with the iPad on my lap...

We are not sailing today- rather we will start out tomorrow to the depths of the Murray river- but that does not make today unexciting... even the thought that I am surrounded by water, waves and river breeze makes me happy.

So while I savour some yummy citrusy mandarin while the same same breeze that is creating the waves on the river play with my hair...

I sort of know where I am.

I am on my way back to myself; and I needed the river to help me with the (at times) long- and still continuing- walk.

Ladies and Gentlemen, let me introduce Murray River to you...

For me, a delightful acquaintance with Murray today. After all, not many days in your life do you get to meet a brand new river!

PS: Wasn't it a grand idea to get the 3G SIM for the iPad before we started out? I think it was, because there are very few things in the world that can rival the serenity of this moment; AS WELL AS blogging about it too!

Saturday, March 12, 2011 | By: Reenie

Social Saturday: Four Things

The lovely Loree had (not so) recently tagged me in the 'Four Things Meme'. 

Loree is a wonderful blogger from Malta... in her blog she shares many photos of the exotic country and writes a blog that is an absolute pleasure to read. Why don't you visit her? I can promise that you won't be disappointed if you do! 

Here's my (most boring) answers... brace yourself :)

Four Shows I Watch

I do not watch TV, so this will not be absolutely accurate... but yes- the following four, if they are on TV on the rare occasions when I happen to watch- let's just say I won't flip the channel or turn off the telly.

1. House

2. Big Bang Theory

3. Friends

4. Burn Notice

Four Things I Am Passionate About

1. Cats, specially my Sherkhan

2. My home

3. My personal space

4. My Crazy

Four Phrases I Say A Lot

1. Whetever...

2. Bleh... oh well..

3. Oh, don't tell me...

4. What the...

Four Things I’ve Learned From The Past

1. The more things change, the more they remain the same.

2. Yes, I can :).

3. Hope is the mother of disappointment; and a soul that cannot hope is one that's ailing.

4. Sanity is overrated.

Four Places I’d Like To Go

1. New Zealand

2. Egypt

3. Maldives

4. Caribbean Islands

Four Things I Did Yesterday

1. Worked

2. Studied for my CPA qualifications

3. Watched sunrise

4. Ate left over food :D

Four Things I’m Looking Forward To

1. Our houseboat trip to Echuka

2. Our Australian Citizenship

3. Labour Day- Anzac Day long weekend

4. The Boy's Degree

Four Things I Love About Winter

1. The long shadows

2. Skirts, Stockings and Long Jackets

3. Quilts and Doonas

4. Winter birds

Four Things On My Wish List

1. The perfect shade of nail polish

2. A few million dollars

3. A house by the Beach

4. A huge shoe wardrobe FULL OF SHOES!

And now I need to tag four other blogs. I am trying to choose four that I have not tagged in the recent times, so come play and spread the fun!

1. Jacqueline at Jacqueline's Cat House

2. Meera at Romancing Life

[Rules: If you are tagged and would like to play- then say a line or two about the blog that has awarded you with a autolink to that blog, give your answers, tag four bloggers of your choice. Simple!] 
Friday, March 11, 2011 | By: Reenie

Pitter Patter

Days are gradually getting shorter now.

It was the first time this year when I stepped out of the front door last week- and the sensor light turned itself on... and the realization hit me at the same time the chilly wind did:

... it was darker then than it was at the same time earlier morning, and colder too.

I am about to get those stockings out of the closet, and those full-sleeved shirts and light sweaters... True, it is an understatement that I don’t like the cold... but I can still try to look good!

I figured that I would rather be fashionable and miserable than just plain miserable!

Do remember please before the word ‘vain’ crosses your mind... Days, here, are getting shorter and we all have our own ways of dealing with the dark; and (sometimes) it is mine.

That's all :)
Thursday, March 10, 2011 | By: Reenie

Series Spoonful: Potter v Cullens

Twilight Saga or Harry Potter for you? 

For me, it is Harry Potter... 

It is always Harry Potter... not in the 'Harry is my Love' kind of way, rather 'I wish there was a Hogwarts' way, or 'I wish this world was a little more *magical*' way.... 

No surprise here that as an avid reader of all Harry Potter books, and watcher of Harry Potter movies [well enough to know who played Cedric Diggory in the Harry Potter movie;) {It was the same person who played the *sparkling* vampire Edward Cullen in Twilight, btw- namely Robert Pattinson}] that...

.... I found this clip rather funny

But then, of course- I am not a Twilight fan, I do not like Edward Cullen and I don't care if vampires sparkle or not... nope, not one bit!

There is indeed a possibility that the Team Twilight may not find this clip very funny. Oops!

Haha... long live wit and sarcasm :); how dull the world would have been without either? 
Sunday, March 6, 2011 | By: Reenie

Birthdays [52p # 10]

I do not publicize my birth date.  

I do not have my birth date published on Facebook, I do not make birthday posts on Blogger, I do not make 'IT'S MY BIRTHDAY' tweets... I let the day pass as quietly as I can...

If you asked me why, I couldn't tell you. I don't know why... well, not entirely anyway... other than that I am a borderline paranoid person with semi-schizophrenic longing for personal space.

Don't get me wrong, I'm happy when it is remembered; and to be honest I am not fussed if it's not. For me, it is just another day when I am another day older... besides- if I have to remind it, it is just the same as 'forgotten' anyway

Crazy remembers, and yet helps me keep it quite... Crazy is great with gifts too... that, or being the gadget girl that I am, I am in the right frequency with him...

... this year it was a MacBook Air and a nice quite dinner at home... surrounded by love from BOTH my boys. After all, if not for these little moments- how'd I be sure that it was indeed a good thing that I was born after all...

... and at the end of the day, no matter how differently we all like celebrating our birthdays, those little happy choice moments is what makes it a GOOD one :).

This post is a part of the 52 Photos Challenge. If you’d like to join in- go on and link up in comments... !

Thursday, March 3, 2011 | By: Reenie

Ice and Water

I am cold... umm, are you cold too? I mean- those of you in this hemisphere [Southern, for the record]... the rest of the world is supposed to be cold at this time of the year, right?

I mean it’s Summer, and I know the thermometer is pointing to a pleasant 18c, I know the Sun is peeping out- but the fact remains- my hands are cold, feet icy and the shiver that is rising from somewhere deep within my chest...? ‘Brrr’ is the only word [which, too, is not really a word] I can say to that... and that too, rather unhappily.

Where did summer go? Has she gone off without saying goodbye or am I coming down with flu? Can I assume that the first did not happen and the second one will not? Come back, Summer. We’re not done with you yet!

I don’t think I can want to handle another winter just yet.
Tuesday, March 1, 2011 | By: Reenie

If wishes were horses, then things would be fine*

It will do me no good to want two very opposing things at the same time, will it? No, it won't... it certainly won't.

Actually not only will it do me no good, it will do me bad- because in doing it- while my mind is divided and torn, so is my life... and my peace of mind, oh... that ever-elusive dear friend of mine, is even farther away.

I have advised myself in the past to not to live by my devastating, uncontrollable and wild emotions- that I so easily succumb to- ever so often... the brain is there for a reason, right?

... but ask me if I paid any heed to my own advise ever- will you? ... or don’t... because I suspect I know what the answer to this might be...

How about YOU though? What rules you- brain or heart? For me, it's HEART.... it has always been heart; heart all the way.

Some days I'm okay with it... some other days though, I wish it wasn't the case.

[Title credit: ‘If Wishes were Horses’ by Annette Gisby]

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