Tuesday, May 31, 2011 | By: Reenie

Epic

Mistakes and follies, loves and hates, likes and dislikes, health and sickness… most of the times though- none of those; just polite indifference.

Emotions- some little ones and some strong… they float and they take shapes and colours- the shapes are now circles and the colours are light, they begin where it ends and ends where it begins… they stay with me- always and never.

Pirates of the Caribbean’ is in the theatres this week and ‘The Lord of the Rings’ is in my Kindle. Pirates can wait, while I get to know the Hobbits… or maybe not- maybe I can have the Pirates and the Hobbits; who said I need to choose?

Up until now, I never knew of the rich world Tolkien had created with his pen and his brain… Why did everyone keep telling me to not even attempt to read ‘The Lord of the Rings’ because it is ‘boring’?! More importantly, why did I listen?

I’m not unhappy anymore; and I am no longer feeling the urge to run away. I am, once again, absorbing it in so that I am a part of it as it is mine. Those hard red squares are now light yellow wiggly circles… it’s all blending in.

… and that’s a good thing, mostly.
Thursday, May 26, 2011 | By: Reenie

IT'S MY SITS DAY!!!

I am going to make a fun announcement today.

Guys & Girls, I am today’s Featured Blogger in SITS!

Yay!

Those of you who would like to know what SITS is- start by clicking this link. It is a nice website I visit [almost] daily- for new finds, tips or new blogs to read… if you would like to be a Featured Blogger one day- here is where you will find the rules and the form too.

Go on! Get going now!

How to Blog

It’s fun already!

IT’S MY SITS DAY, YAY!

In other news- there is likely to be a lot of visitors at my blog today and I’m guessing (hoping?) that this post will have many comments while the blog is in spotlight... and I, too, hope to find some new blogs to follow and read!

So- while you are here, my new visitors and old [you didn't think I'll forget you- did you?], please make yourselves at home.

I'm absolutely glad to have you all in my space!

Cheers!
Monday, May 23, 2011 | By: Reenie

Amo La Vida

A trip to the beautiful shop near my work, 4 birthday gifts [for friends’ birthdays that went by recently and one that was coming up this weekend] and spending quite some amount of money later, I felt so merry…

I guess the weekend had hit me finallyand then the rest of it remained delightful through and through. Retail therapy has worked for me more often than not, after all.

It helps to remember that if the source of my much distress [aka job] has to go, so does this expensive therapy [aka retail]. I mean it when I say that it’s not the money I love- but rather it the things that money can buy…

… and then- sometimes it’s not even the ‘things’, it’s the act of ‘buying’. Please tell me you know what I mean? :)

In other semi-related news- the name of the mentioned shop is ‘Amo La Vida’; and for some ‘vaguely-explicable’ reason I like that very much :)
Thursday, May 19, 2011 | By: Reenie

‘Nearly’ As Good As it Gets

I may not know a lot of things and the decisions I make may not always be the best ones… but I know this much...


... that no matter what- I did make some right ones in my life and now...

... I am one of those who ‘gets’ it when Melvin tells Carol ‘You make me want to be a better man'.

[Reference, the movie- As Good As it Gets].

Are you?



[Image Credit: Wikipedia]
Wednesday, May 18, 2011 | By: Reenie

Seek

In the last few months, I have done many a thing that I’m not proud of.

I beat myself over them for about a month; one thing about clinical depression is that it can sneak up on you from the smallest unattended crack and turn you into a person much worse than, well… you; so there I was- in that murky place inside my head- wondering where did the sun go…


Then, about a few hours back- I decided to let it go and forgive myself… lock that murky place up [ and perhaps loose the key] and seek out the sun.

True- I am still not happy about the things I did [or almost did]: I ‘almost’ quit my job, deferred my CPA segment exam, stopped reading EVERYONE’s blog, stopped writing in all three of my blogs, slept a lot and missed my dead grandmother like crazy

… overall I have been much more of a ‘quitter’ than a ‘survivor’, but well… things happen.

I want to be back; and I wish- finally this time around- I can too.

PS: Thank you for sticking with me all this time. It means more than you’d probably know :)

[Image Credit: Crazy]
Friday, May 13, 2011 | By: Reenie

Trio

This day last year- Pekky and I had arranged a small cake for our friend, Sal.

It wasn't much- just a small cheesecake from the grocery store nearby brought at the work lunch to mark the day. It was small, quite and unceremonious- but it was important for us that we do 'something' for our friend on her birthday- and we did the little we could in our tight work routine- it was fun though- all three of us are the 'private' sort, so it worked out happy :).

Then again last year, when Sal went to the U S of A- she brought in a bagful of Hershey's 'Kisses' for me and Pekky. I never was a fan of chocolates- but that bag was precious- it reminded me that I was important enough... it made me happy.

This year, all three of us from three different locations, longed for those little moments of happiness friendship often brings. I guess I miss them more than I realize most of the times. I guess they do too.

Has it really been a year already?

Time flies, doesn't it?

I miss them. Work is not the same anymore and I guess I am admitting that I am a little lonely these days.

It's been a while no one has done those little precious things for me (not counting Crazy). It's been a while I have not done them either (again, not counting Crazy).

Today, I miss our little quiet lunches, simple grocery store cakes, a bagful of Hershey's, the comfort of having a 'friend' beside... and a lunchtime to look forward to.

Today I miss Pekky and Sal.

Today, I know that despite my many reservations about friendship- some have worked out great and I have indeed made a few great friends.

How's that for a happy thought? :)


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Monday, May 9, 2011 | By: Reenie

Wintry

… this morning Sher woke me up… and then, we walked and trotted around the house on our two legs and four… to turn the heater on… to sit on the sofa for a while… to meow and coo… to purr, knead and cuddle… all of it just for a little while.

… then, I had to get out of our little comfy den to the bad, cold, frosty, chilly world…

… like the rest of the world. I’m not special, I know :).

… but yes, Melbourne is frosty these days- bed socks are out, heaters are turned full-on all day, instant soups are back in the grocery list as cold coffee is out… I bought a few nice stockings and covered shoes- outdoors is slightly better after that, but even then… Winter is not really my season.

It feels strange to think that in another hemisphere, Winter- the season that feels so alien to me now- was the season that I was born in…


PS: Hope the weather’s better over where you are :)


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Wednesday, May 4, 2011 | By: Reenie

Eureka

I could finally pinpoint it... I now know.

What I have actually lost is faith in some people- some seemingly insignificant people in the broader view of things, but people I see/ saw every day nonetheless... and one of those I trusted [there are not many that I do] and don’t anymore.

That’s what’s causing it... that’s why I’m so awkward these days and so ‘demotivated’.

Finding this answer was important. I can now set my focus back on things-more important things- like blogging, or shoes, or nail polishes, or reading my favourite blogs :).

Peace is not far away, my friends. I will be back... soon enough.

PS: I miss Blogging. Hope you all are well :)
Monday, May 2, 2011 | By: Reenie

A Lifetime

Crazy typing out his assignment- eyes stuck to his MacBook monitor, me sitting on the floor sorting out papers, the furkid on the sofa lazily looking at us between cat naps- belly up.

I make an idle comment while placing the AGL bill to the ‘keep’ pile, ‘This year, it will be our 12th year together and our 7th year of marriage

He nods, turns his lips and smiles- all the while keeps typing.

Basically, spent my whole life with you- didn’t I?’, I say casually, smiling and perhaps with a hint of mock despair...

His smile broadens a little and he nods again... eyes still stuck on the monitor, but the expression much softer.

I smile and go back to the papers. This guy nods a lot. He nodded at me the first time we met... no ‘hello’, no ‘nice to meet you’- just a smile and a nod. I thought that was cute- none of us are big talkers, after all.

We came to adore each other’s words and silences through the years.

After all we HAVE spent almost our WHOLE lives together, haven’t we?
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